Love, Lust, and Friendship ♡ A Kim Taehyung ff/smut/short ft Jungkook. |18+|

Chapter 11

Taehyung POV

"Okay..I love you Anna"
Silence. 
She didn't say it back..she just ended the call. 
This is really it isn't it? 

I'm losing the love of my life and it's all my fault. I did nothing to stop her. And now she'd rather stay at Jungkook's house then be home with me. 

I deserve this

I shook my head as I walked towards the bathroom, I cried the entire length of my shower. I got changed and slid into her bed hugging her pillow tight as I sobbed. 
She has no idea how I feel. 
And that's my fault. 
But now I know for certain she feels the same way. 
Well, she did. 
Until she saw Becca and I. 

How could I have been so stupid? 
I let my jealousy take over me. 

After everything went down and I cried to Jimin, he had told me that she didn't sleep with Jungkook because she was in love with me and couldn't bring herself to sleep with him. 
But me?
I was ready and willing to fuck Becca into oblivion. 
Why am I such a piece of shit? 
What do I do to fix this? 

I tossed and turned in her bed trying to think of a solution. The smell of her perfume and her shampoo was keeping me awake. 
His bed probably smells like her now.. 
Or worse..

She smells like him. 

I gritted my teeth as the tears streamed down my face. 
Usually when I'm upset Anna holds my head to her chest and sings to me while she rubs my back..and then we eat ice cream..sometimes afterwards we have sex..or we just cuddle and talk about our childhood together and our awkward highschool days. 
But now.
I cry alone. 
Talk about the most empty and cold feeling. I never expected it to be like this.
Not for us. 
I grabbed my phone

Me: how is she? 
Kook: sleeping
Me:...but is she okay?
Kook: as good as can be expected I guess, she's just hurting right now. She wants space from you..I'll give you updates Tae, I know you care about her. But I'm not going to betray her trust either. She needs someone right now to hold her together without the fear of them letting her down. 
Me: I understand..and thank you
Kook: you don't have to thank me. I'm doing this for her. Not you. 
Me: that's fair. 
Kook: good night 

I locked my phone and stuck it back on her end table. I wanted to smack my face into a brick wall. 

I woke up in the late afternoon, I checked my phone but there was nothing from her. I decided to get dressed for the day, afterwards I got in my car and drove to the flower shop. I picked up an assorted bouquet for her and some chocolates, I drove to the dress shop and parked my car.

With a heavy sigh I stepped out and grabbed the stuff I bought for her, I saw her through the glass putting dresses away, I swallowed my pride and walked into the store, but before I could approach her I noticed Jungkook had been standing beside her. They were laughing, he wrapped his arms around her waist and nuzzled his face into her neck as she stayed focused on her job 

"Mmm how about..chicken parm tonight?" He asked and she got excited 
"That sounds amazing kookie!" She squealed and he pecked her cheek 
"Great we'll stop at the store on the way home" he smiled down at her, she smiled up at him but her smile didn't reach her eyes. 

She was still upset. 

I looked at the way he held her and back down to the gifts in my hands. 

I don't deserve her..

I sighed and quietly exited the shop, I threw the flowers and chocolates into the trashcan next to the door and got back in my car. 
I smacked my head on the steering wheel before her voice caught my attention 
"Oh my gosh! Who would throw away such pretty flowers?" 
Jungkook looked left and right looking for anyone walking by before he shrugged 
"I don't know Noona, but they're yours now. We can put them in water when we get home" 

She still got my flowers. And I still put a smile on her face even if she doesn't know it was me. It's probably better this way..maybe she wouldn't have smiled at them if she knew who they were from. 

I watched them walk to his car as he held his hand on her lower back, he opened the door for her and she thanked him before getting in. He shut the door and got in on his side, I watched them drive away until they were no longer in sight. 

I love you Anna, more than you'll ever know