His green eyed cop(a sequel to my blue eyed sheriff)

Not leaving

Ella's P.O.V.

I woke up in the middle of the night to the sound of crying, but this time it wasn't Shayle crying like it usually is. I open my eyes and sat up to see Carl crying while holding his wrist.

Oh god! He didn't! Please tell me he didn't! "Carl please tell me you didn't!" I say as I stand up and run towards him quietly so the sleeping baby doesn't wake up.

"Im sorry for everything I did yesterday! I did it because I'm scared you were gonna be disappointed about me being depressed again and I couldn't break up with you I love you to much! That's why I proposed then with the Bob thing and what you said about what if that would be us and I just.." Carl lets everything out as he starts to cry more. "Im sorry Ella! I never meant to freak out it was the first thing that popped in my head!" Carl says.

"Baby it's okay just ....m-move your arm away from your chest." I say nervously and Carl shakes his head.

"Carl please." I say getting scared at what I might see. I hated to see his cuts. He usually didn't do as many but the last few times he did quite a few which scares me a lot. He slowly moves his arm and I cover my mouth.

"Carl.." I say unable to finish my sentence. He had multiple new cuts up and down his arms.

"Im sorry!This is what I was scared of!" Carl says as tons of tears fall out of his eyes.

"Carl I love you! I'm here to help you I will never be disappointed at you for being depressed." I say and stand up "Come on let's get you cleaned up." I say and Carl still cries.

"Im sorry."He says and I grab his face in between my hands.

"It's okay." I say and wipe his tears away with my thumbs. "I love you." I whisper and Carl smiles.

"I love you too." he says. I grab his hand and intertwine our fingers. I bring him to where the first aid kit is and make his sit down on a table.

"I don't want you to ever feel like I'm disappointed by you for something you need help with because I'm not, and I don't want you to feel like you need to get me mad so I'll break up with you because it's to hard for you ether." I say as I get an alcohol wipe.

"This may sting a little." I say and Carl smirks

"Can I kiss you as a distraction?" Carl asks us and I giggle.

"I have to see your arm babe, but you can squeeze my hand. I owe you that since I nearly amputated your hand when I was having Shayle." I say and Carl smiles

"Never knew you had such a strong grip." Carl says with a chuckle. I put my hands on his thighs and separate his legs then stand in between them.He grabs my hand and squeezes it as I run the alcohol wipe on the cuts.

"Since you aren't disappointed in me.... can we go back to how it was?" Carl asks and I smile.

"Only if I can go back to being Mrs.Grimes." I say and Carl smiles

"Of course baby." Carl says and I smile. I finished cleaning his up and dropped the trash on the floor then wrap my arms around Carl's neck.

"So all that stuff that you said about not loving me that was an act right?" I ask and Carl nods.

"I was scared like you said and didn't want to break up with you! I couldn't and I was going to propose to you that day so I did, I got all those negative thoughts away for just enough time. But then I had so many doubts about myself that I wouldn't be good enough and I couldn't say goodbye so I had to make you say it." Carl says and I kiss his lips quickly.

"Nether of us will ever have to say goodbye." I whisper in his ear.

"I almost did it you know." Carl says. "Kill myself. I was gonna go in the room Bob died in. Thats how much I felt like I was disappointing you, and I didn't want to disappoint Shayle when she got older. I just couldn't let that happen. I would feel so bad." Carl says.