San POV
Losing her in my life giving a big impact to me that I never thought it will be a worst thing to my next life. Park Seohyun, a girl that already make a big messed in my deeper world that I need to live with.
It's already happened to fast and I just get my enough balls to facing the world, the fact that she never come back to me or maybe she will but not too soon.
For the first time I came here, I wasn't sure if this is the right choice but I had to. My heart never stop pounding hard as I feel so nervous to meet her. Well, I got transfer here for a couple months and I got shocked when I got her campus. The most shocking thing is I got to take in charge on her class.
God, please save me.
I supposed to came here the same day with Seonghwa but I suddenly have a thing to done first. So, I decided to go to her campus first before going to Seonghwa's house.
First time I met her after three years sending a butterfly not only my stomach but my whole body. I trying to be cool when she saw me that day but believe me if I can hug her that time I'll do it without hesitated and her expression never disappointed me.
Fuck! I miss her so bad.
When the day I coming to her house she really doesn't like it or maybe she to awkward with me since the thing between us. I admitted that I used to hate her before but I know she not meant it and I'm not really hated her.
I just want to see if she still feel the same way as me and I saw that. She really can't tell lies because whatever she speak, her action turn to otherwise. She still the same person I've met before especially her bad temper tantrums. That's the things I miss the most.
"Can you stay with me?"
She just asked me to stay with her the whole night today and I actually feel so surprised. Well, I never thinking that she will asked me after two days I'm here. She acting like she hate me and really uncomfortable whenever I'm around her. I just wish that I can pushed her away because she hurting me so at least I want to show her I can live without her but seeing her crying it's make me felt bad.
So fucking bad.
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"Just close your eyes and don't thinking anything, I'm here with you." I said as I laid her on her bed my finger caressed her hair and mesmerizing her face for a thousand time, I just can't get enough to see her beauty.
She's really beautiful.
"Sleep here, San. I'm not that cruel to asked you for sleeping on the floor." She said while holding my shirt as she scooting her body a little and make a space for me to lay down beside her.
I just looking at her weirdly, why she suddenly acting like this? I cleared my throat and shaking my head as I refused her offer. It's weird too weird if I and her sleep together in a one bed. Yes, it's not our first time to sleep together but it's too awkward for now, for me at least.
"San, please." She begging me again and for God's sake I really can't resist this one.
"Fine-- don't complaint anything tomorrow when you're wake up. I'm not the one who desperate to sleep with you, okay?" I said and going to the plug to closed her light after that I crawling on her bed. She just giggling and waiting me to laid beside her.
I open the lamp on the nightstand and I turn my body to looking at her face as she just smiling soft when our eyes meet each other. Only the soft light hit us and I swear she really look sexy in this way.
San, control yourself first.
Before I could thinking otherwise suddenly she laughing like a really aloud and I just furrowed my eyebrows and observed her face.
"Why were you laughing? I told you to sleep." I said and pushed her hair away that covered her face with my finger.
"Don't you think this is kinda funny? I mean-- San, I'm hurting you and I know you must really hate me." She said and make her face more closer to me. I flinched a bit when I can feel her breathing touch my skin.
"Em-- what make you thinking that I hate you?" I clearing throat and chuckling nervous.
"Uh you-- not hate me?" She asked me with her big eyes.
"I did but it happened three years ago and why I need to make myself suffering on that period and it's all shit. We need to move on, right?" I said as I raising my eyebrows to her.
"Oh-- I see, okay. Good night." She suddenly sound broken and she turn her body and make her face facing to the wall.
I'm shocked.
"Hey, what's wrong? Am I said something that hurt you?" I asked her but she not replied me.
Silence filled up the room for a minute and. I have no word to said. I don't think I made a wrong sentences when I speak with her. I looking at her back untill I heard a sniffing? I touched her shoulder and make myself closer to her.
"Are you crying again? God, Why you're so sensitive tonight?" I asked her but she still not answer me.
I pulled her closer to me and when her face look at me I can see a tears on her cheek and I sighed under my breath. I put my thumb on her cheek and wiping her tears. She just closed her eyes not wanting to open that as her tears keep pouring like a waterfall.
"Seohyun, look. Open your eyes please...." I said as my hand still on her face. She open her eyes slowly and biting her lips as she holding her hiccups.
"I'm not hating you-- I'm sorry for the first time we meet that day, I'm too harsh with you. I just want to see if you still the same Seohyun that I know or not. Believe me Seohyun, I can't hate you. If for three years you were suffering because what you did, I feel the same way. So, I coming here to asked your explanations. I waiting you to come back into my arm again. But please-- don't hiding anything from me after this." I said and looking deep to her eyes, searching something that I lost it for three years and it's still there. I smiling to her at least I know she still feel the same way.
"San--" She trying to said but I put my finger on her lips to make her quiet.
"It's okay, we can talk about this tomorrow. Just sleep for now." I said again and caressed her cheek.
She just hummed for me and wrapping her arm on my torso. I couldn't help myself for not doing the same. I hugging her back and make her face buried on my neck. Her soft breathing touch my skin make me feel relieved, relieved that I know she will back to me.
I give a short kiss on her temple and put my head on her as I closed my eyes. We both just snuggled with each other for the rest of the night.
I swear to god, I miss this moment. I hope tomorrow will be a new day for us.
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