The Hidden Secret

Part 8: Never in a million years

A few minutes later...

I get a notification. I hope it's from Johnny but it's from Anna.

"Hey, I want to apologise for how I acted yesterday. I didn't mean to flip out so bad but when I heard your conversation with Johnny I just felt this sudden burst of anger in me. I know you would never mean to hurt me like that and I can't really be mad at you as you didn't know about me and Johnny. I'm more furious at him than I am at you. If you do need to talk I am always a phone call away x"

I never expected her to apologise to me but I mean she does have a fair reason to not be angry with me. I reply back to her.

"Thank you so much for understanding, honestly if I knew I would have never of done anything. You're such a good friend I couldn't ever hurt you. Being angry at Johnny is fine and you have every right to be, he should of told me he was in a relationship. Always here for you no matter what xx"

I put my phone back down on my bed and turn my TV on. I put YouTube on and watch last night's SACCONEJOLY vlog, they always cheer me up and I'm so grateful to have their videos to comfort me. After it finishes I put on the "K-12" playlist then check my phone. I have a message from Johnny but I'm too scared to open it. I build up the courage and open the message. To my surprise it's not an angry message.

"Hey, I've been meaning to text you as I also want to talk about last night. Do you want me to come round now?"

I reply back to him.

"I don't start work for another few hours so yeah come round now and we can have a chat."

I sigh in relief and put my phone on the bed. I make another cup of tea and brace myself for my conversation with Johnny.

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I pace up and down the living room feeling anxious about what is about to happen. I care so much for Adam but I am so in love with Johnny. Why is it when I find a nice guy I have to mess things up?

I put my speaker on and play my Talia Mar playlist, her voice soothes me so much I honestly don't know what I would do without her music.

I sit down on the sofa and start thinking about what to say to him, do I tell him how I feel about him or not? I said I was going to wait until after my conversation with Johnny but I honestly don't know how I feel anymore. Maybe I should just dump Adam and forget about them but then again I care about them too much to hurt them like that.

I pick my phone up and start texting my friends to take my mind off of it, they still don't know what happened so I have to keep quiet about it.

About 10-15 minutes later I hear a knock at the door, it must be Johnny. I turn off my music and put my phone on the table then prepare myself for what is about to happen. I get up off the sofa and head towards the door. I take a deep breath in and open it to see Johnny standing there with a bunch of red roses in his hands.

"Hey." He says.

"Hey, come in." I say.

He comes in and I close the door behind him, we walk into the lounge.

"Theses are for you." He says as he hands me the roses.

"Thank you, they're lovely." I put them on the counter and we sit down on the sofa.

"Are you okay? Yesterday was quite crazy and a lot of stuff was revealed." I ask.

"I've been feeling quite broken and upset but I've just had to toughen up. I mean I did do this to myself I shouldn't feel as upset as I am. How are you holding up?"