The Hidden Secret

Part 9: Make up

A week later....

I'm lying in my bed flicking through YouTube and twitter trying to decide what to watch it. Eventually after 5 minutes I decide to put How I met your mother on in the background as I scroll through twitter and Instagram. A few minutes later I get a message from Johnny. I haven't talked to him or Adam in a week, I can't bring myself to talk to them. I open the message and it reads:

"Hey Beth, I'm just texting to see how you are as I haven't heard from you in a few days. I thought you'd like to know how awkward yesterday's Friday night dinner was. Most of the time mum was just moaning at me then being sympathetic to Adam. I really hope it's not always like this, I just wish you could of been there yesterday. Then again, I know mum would of probably been horrible to you so you probably shouldn't come round for a while. Hope you're okay xx"

That message made me feel quite happy, I don't know why but it just made me smile a real smile for the first time in ages. I leave it a few minutes before replying as I don't want to seem to eager but once I've waited a while I reply back.

"Sounds like a lovely Friday Night Dinner at the Goodman house haha. It did feel weird not being there yesterday but I know it was for the best. Surprisingly Adam hasn't even text me since last week, I'm getting scared he's forgetting about me and he's with some new bimbo instead. I'll probably try call him in a bit to see how he is as he obviously isn't trying. Thank you for checking up on me xx"

I start to text Adam.

"Hey Adam, I think I'm ready to talk about what I want now. I don't have work today so you can come round whenever x"

I don't know why I'm the one texting Adam when he's the one who should be making the effort. In the 3 months of our relationship I've always been the one to make effort and he's done hardly anything other then pay for a few meals. When I say a few I do mean a few, no more than 3 meals. All the rest I payed for. I shouldn't be so harsh about him though, he has helped me a lot with everything and I'm so grateful for him. After zoning back into reality I realise Johnnys text me back.

"Adam still might need some time to think about things but it's quite shocking how he hasn't even checked up on you. I promise you he wouldn't of found someone else that quickly, it took him a few years to find you so it will take him a while lol. You know I'll always be here for you xx"

I smile at his message and think about how much Johnny has helped me recently, if it wasn't for him comforting me I would of just forgotten about Adam. My phone pings, it's a message from Adam.

"Hey, sorry I haven't messaged recently I've been quite busy. I'm free now though so I'll come round x"

I'm finally going to tell him how I feel. I'm nervous but I know it's what I want.

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Half an hour later I hear a knock at the door and rush to open it. When I do I see Adam standing there, he looks more happy than last week.

"Hi, sorry it's been so long." He says.

"It's okay, come in." I say.

We walk into the lounge and sit on the sofa.

"I'm so sorry I haven't messaged you or checked up on you but I've been so busy with work I've had no time to myself." He says.

"Honestly it's okay, you're here now and that's all that matters." I reply.

"So, you said you've made your decision."

"Yeah I have. I think we should break up or at least take a break. I've loved these past 3 months with you I really have but I don't know if you're able to give me what I want in a relationship. This week has shown that as well, you're always working and we never get to spend time together. I understand work is important but I think you have different priorities to me at the moment. Also this doesn't mean I'm definitely going to date Johnny, I still need to think about my situation with him. I just want to know if we can still stay as friends?"