My hero, my lover.

Chapter 12.

Chapter 12- Sounds

Beep, beep, beep. That was all I could hear. I couldn't move, I felt stiff and sore. I can only briefly remember what happened to me. Beep, beep, beep. Why? Why is it that these type of things only seem to happen to me? Is it karma? Who knows, but all I know is that it is officially driving me insane. All these life threatening black mailings' and the threatening itself is something that I find it hard to personally deal with. I have those friends that are their for me and that say they will do anything to protect me, but what if it comes to the time where I do need their help and they run or worse, attempt to help me but killed in the process. I couldn't deal with that. So all I fell like I can do is keep them out of this and deal with it myself.

Beep, beep, beep.

Trying to move atleast a finger was a job in itself. I can't move anything nor open my own eyes. I find it frustrating. Now I know what it feels like for those people who are always in a coma. Wait coma? is that what I am in? Oh I hope to god that I'm not. Thinking about all the people that I would leave behind made me feel like I was about to cry but it wasnt possible. I would be leaving behind Lauren and all my other friends. Alan too, I don't want to leave Alan alone. How will he react when he finds out that I was unable to call him when I needed to most? Will he ignore me or will he be there for reassurance and to help me get me back to my normal old ways? Has Ron got to him already? Oh god NO! I want to move!! I want to get out of bed and call Alan! Anything, anyone I need to get up.

I heard a door open and the sound of bustling people out in the hallway burst through the door until it was closed again and the room fell silent. Was someone in here with me? I heard a sniff that made me think I wasn't.

"Oh Becca." I heard someone say, it sounded as if they were trying to hold back tears. They walked closer as I heard the heels of their shoes hit the vinal flooring. It was a woman by the sound of their shoes.

"Oh Becca." They repeated next to me. I heard the scrap of a chair then they must have taken as seat next to me.

"I don't know if you can hear me darling but its me, your mum. I heard what happened. How comes you didn't tell me?" She sounded upset. Then I heard her chuckle.

"Why am i asking you? You cant reply." She took a hold of my hand. She was shaking. She squeezed my hand to see if I would squeeze back. I tried, oh so hard to squeeze back but to no prevail I couldn't even move my small finger to tell her I was ok. She let go and put something on a desk beside my bed and left again. I was all alone once again. Well when I say alone I mean stuck with that god aweful Beeping! It was beginning to annoy me.

What felt like hours later, someone walked in my room again. They picked up something at the end of my bed and clicked something. Must be a nurse doing a check up on me and recording it down on the clip board on the end of my bed. I heard the door open again.

"Oh I'm sorry my dear. Am I interupting anything?" I heard someone say something.

"Oh no. Are you Alan Rickman?" Oh my god, Alan is alright! I could cry of happiness!

"I'm sorry to disappoint you my dear but no I am not." I could tell it was him because when ever we spoke he would always say my dear. And his voice was so familiar to me, it sounded like angel's singing to me. The nurse put the clip board back and left me and Alan alone together.

"Heyy Rebecca." He grasped my hand and did the same as mother, squeezed my hand. I tried so hard to squeeze back. but I couldn't. I felt a tear roll down the side of my face.

"Rebecca, your crying. Are you trying to communicate with me? If you can let another tear fall, though I don't like to see you cry." I felt another tear roll out of the other eye. I felt him chuckle and stand up still holding my hand then he surprised me. He leant over me and hugged me and kissed me on the lip's. Oh how I wanted to kiss him back. My hand twitched by itself, probably feeling the excitment building up within me. My nerves must be reacting to Alan. he pulled away and placed something like paper in my hand.

"I will visit you soon Rebecca but the visiting time's are soon ending. Speak soon my dear." He kissed my forhead and left me alone again. I let more tear's fall. I was happy yet really upset. When will I wake up?

Beep, beep, beep.