Mirrors and Shatters - Johnlock - Trans!Sherlock x John - Sherlock bbc

Chapter 7- Lucifer's Monthly Waterfalls

Sherlock has really wanted to tell John of him being trans but fear hit him hard in the stomach. He knew John was ok with same sex couples, obviously but would he be ok with being in a relationship with a trans man??

Sherlock groaned. They had decided to share the bed as it helped Sherlock sleep and overall John just liked the nice cuddles and playing with Sherlock's hair. They were under the covers and John awoke to see blood on the sheets. John shook Sherlock wake eve so slightly.
"Sherlock I'm going out." He informed the sleepy man who grunted as a response as John climbed off the mattress.
A few minutes pass and Sherlock notices the blood on the sheets.
Shit
He cursed mentally. What if John had left him forever because he had just found out that he was trans. What if John hated him. What if John left forever and told ever what a freak he was.
Sherlock curled up in a ball as cramps hit him hard. He groaned in discomfort. He felt sweaty and gross. The dysphoria hit him like a truck and he began silently crying.
John soon returned to see a crying curled up Sherlock with a bag in hand. John put his hand on his boyfriend's shoulder.
"You alright love?" He kindly asked the dark haired man. Sherlock was surprised. John was still here and hadn't left him because he was biologically female?
"You haven't left yet??" Sherlock quietly spoke. John was shocked why would he possibly leave Sherlock?
"Why would I leave?" He asked beginning to play with his curls. Sherlock turned to look up at John. There eyes met. Sherlock's looked away before meeting John's once more.
"Because I'm a freak and a tr*nny" he managed to choke out. Sherlock's eyes began to well up. John hugged the poor man and Sherlock cried into John's chest.
The broke from each other and John then looked at Sherlock.
"You didn't know that I knew you were trans?"
Sherlock's face turned red.
"You knew?! Who told you?! It was Mycroft wasn't it?!" John let out a laugh as he sat down onto the mattress as Sherlock huffed. John held the tired man closely to him.
"No I found out. One day while Mrs. Hudson and I were looking for drugs and cigarettes I found your testosterone." John explained to his boyfriend. Sherlock snuggled into his boyfriend's chest. The fact that John knew made Sherlock feel so much more at ease. John rubbed Sherlock's back as the cramps were still hitting him hard. John then got up from the plush mattress. Sherlock held onto his shirt before his hands slid off of the fabric of his boyfriend's jumper. John pointed around the bag which he had placed down besides the bed.
"I went to the store and got you somethings, I'm gonna go run a bath for you." John said leaving the bedroom. Sherlock looked to the bag. His blueish green eyes longed to look at what was in the white plastic bag. He outstretched an arm and snatched the bag bringing it to him. He opened the bag and he smiled at what he found.

There were two packages of pads with wings, a small heating pad, and a large bag of popcorn. John then returned to the room and helped Sherlock up and get to the bath. Sherlock never felt more relief in his life.

Hello everyone! I was inspired to write this because as I'm writing this I am currently suffering through this torture. I don't really experience much discomfort during this awful time of the month because I'm constantly exercising on Rollar Blades (it's a stress reliever). Exercise helps a lot however I still feel like shit. Anyways goodbye!
- Umber