Crossroad between the choppy waves and serene fields

Clear vision, Clear outcome - Distraction aside

Ah Xia! Ah Ma so proud of you! Wow so handsome your Er Ge show me the video!
Kay was on a video call with his grandma. He had just completed his regional tour to promote his launch before heading off a few weeks on his own trip sometime off.

The launch was successful, Uncle Li had nothing to say, grandpa and his brothers gave thumbs up and it was really worth every possible effort he had put in.

Being on the plane alone, just peaceful and looking forward to the trip it self was worth every effort. This quiet comfort....allows him think about his next trajectory. He closed his eyes and thought back how things had turn out between him and Yan Lan that day at the dance studio.

"I can't make it up what is it that is bothering you.....since the times in Taiwan, we were fine and then you started distancing when I told you that your brother and I are mutual friends....we didn't get to talk about it" Yan Lan asked "and what's with you ....with your past and Jon, who is he to you...I really want to know, we managed to put everything behind but why does it keep bothering you"

Kay stopped and look at him....He felt Yan Lan's breath so close to him and the smell of his familiar scent, and yet he questioned in his heart how would he need to answer Yan Lan.

"I don't think i need to answer you that......"Kay answered back

"What are you avoiding....that story you wrote...you blame yourself for everything but then .....but you said you saw found happiness like how he would want you to yet you are afraid to feel again....."

"No! It wasn't...you've mistaken." Kay said he was himself confused when he had written it. He missed Jon but because Jon was really like a close family member ....it was different with Yan Lan and he had to put a hard stop  to not allow for any further misunderstanding. It was...just a story"

"Was it? You painted the times we were together that you manage to smile back ....and that you never knew what these feelings were it was different and you drew your feelings out in those words" Yan Lan was not letting go he was persistently pushing an answer.

"You said that you found a great connection in us and that you were glad to have me at the most difficult times ...., these were the words you said then you decided to play cool after.....then why did you responded, why did you lead me on knowing that I had a different view of our relationship?"

Kay is getting uncomfortable with this conversation and Yan Lan's behaviour at this stage. He tried to move from his grip but Yan Lan wanted answers ....answers he wasn't sure how to give. Kay wasn't sure exactly what he felt .....he wanted Yan Lan to be himself, not pressured by anyone or his family yet in his heart he knew it's somehow not right to feel this way with Yan Lan. The stereotyping, perception ....

"I want to go back to those times Kay, I know it's selfish of me to ask that of you, but you gave me a strong sense then we were really more than just ordinary friends and business partners, way more .....Kay"

Kay's heart beat pounding at every spoken words. Did he wrongly responded to Yan Lan's move earlier, he thought ....he wasn't sure anymore.

"I'm not him.....so don't tell me I'm just filling in the void because what I feel is more" Yan Lan added

"I didn't like it that you did not not tell me upfront about certain things .....that you were sent by my brothers" Kay explained

"I was initially operating on that mode, but that doesn't change the fact I learn to know who you are through you" Yan Lan said.

With that Yan Lan move in closer to catch Kay....they had shared similar moments and the signal that Kay sent was confusing....Yan Lan wasn't sure if Kay was just taking the comfort he needed but he was willing to risk it again.