Crossroad between the choppy waves and serene fields

When all fails, Heaven hears our heart

The piano at the art cafe cried that night, it rained a heart shattering melody - this side of Kay ceased to exists for sometime but it resurface tonight.
Every finger that strike at the piano key, a flash of Yan Lan's touch cut his heart. A thought of how he had let Yan Lan in to his life so deeply and how he had to now pull back, exert excruciating pain that he couldn't control himself from crying out loud as he continue endlessly with the keys.

The melody that sung through the entire cafe was accompanied by drops of tears falling on to the keys. At that point Kay felt literally he could not live another day just thinking of what they had gone through and where they are now....and in that desperation he sat by the window and looked out at the lonely bright moon that shone.

"Jon... I can't go on anymore...." a long forgotten promise he made to continue to live life to the fullest

In that desperation he sends a message to Yan Lan. His once confidant, partner turned stranger now

Yan Lan,
Tonight I feel my heart has been ripped apart again to a thousand pieces by you. I never like admitting that I loose in this little game of ours as I have never treated our relationship like a game in the first place but tonight, you won Yan Lan ..... my heart feels extremely pain even after these years, I am broken to the core if that's the answer you want to hear. I am happy for you.

He sent that message although he felt he didn't want to initially. Yan Lan had been making all sorts of movements to make Kay react and to get his attention in the last few years, including going out with celebrities that gets out in the papers, fancy parties where it would be covered in the magazines on his rendezvous hoping to catch Kay's attention that he will call him, get angry, get upset even though he has ceased to communicate. It was just all the crazy ideas that Yan Lan resorted to stir Kay into jealousy and waited for Kay to come back to him.

This all came about when Kay's grandfather together with Uncle Li warn Yan Lan to keep a distance from Kay as Ta Ge had been going on exposing how Yan Lan is making use of Kay to get through to some of the deals they are working on. Ta Ge begin to suspect their relationship after seeing Yan Lan coming out of Kay's place frequently in the morning.

It went in circles with Yan Lan trying to clear it again with Kay and his family and it got to a point for an ultimatum that either Kay is removed from the company including total funding cut for him or he had to stop having anything to do with Yan Lan. Kay chose to breakaway from his family business to start up on his own while at the same time he ceased seeing Yan Lan to minimise complications.

Yan Lan's hurt turned into anger and he was angry with Kay for not standing up for them and what they believed in. That was Yan Lan's expressive way of dealing with his helplessness while Kay kept everything inside.

It hurt Kay to see Yan Lan being treated this way. While he tried to keep a positive view on things Yan Lan can't accept that Kay is calmly accepting the verdict of how things had turn out. Perhaps Yan Lan didn't quite understand Kay's way of dealing with things. Yan Lan wanted Kay back and he thought one way is to get him to react seeing Yan Lan going out with others but every action of his numbed Kay further. Kay was focus on rebuilding his career, company and business on his own.

Tonight however the accumulated hurt exploded finally.

I once asked myself cautiously should i trust this heart of mine to start with and because it was so deeply in love, I could not hold it back but to let it flow along, loving you sincerely with all my heart not holding back at all. I have nothing left to give, I have exhausted my heart loving you, it is a hollow empty glass which was meant for you to break anyway, successfully...I have always been very determine and positive in my view of life but tonight i feel like giving up. I have worked my way up hoping you will wait for me to get there, I guess the wait was too long and our silence through time had taken its own course. I'm not sure how to go on, I thought I was strong until it hit me today. I love you Yan Lan as always I just didn't have the courage to tell you that I still do after all these years and all that had happen. Forgive me I don't want to intrude in your life now, telling you this selfishly but I can't keep this on anymore, we need a proper closure to move on.