It Wasn't Meant To Be

Chapter 16

Violet's POV
After getting ready for the day, I saw Melanie and Reed sitting on the apartment couch, watching a weird movie I had never seen before. I opened the fridge door and that must have caught their attention, "Oh Violet, Reed told me yesterday that you hurt your foot yesterday, how are you doing now?" I smiled in response, it took a lot of energy to be positive when you have a stranger sitting on your couch, "Thank you so much for asking Melanie, I am doing better now and I'm so glad you visited." She grinned in response, "You're so sweet, it's a wonder you've never been in a relationship." I grimaced, "Being in a relationship was the last of my priorities but I guess fate had different plans, a forced marriage is the closest thing to that." An awkward silence settled between us three, "Should I cook you guys breakfast, the maid isn't here today?" Reed shifted in his position, "It's okay Violet, we're going out for brunch, you can cook something for yourself if you want." I wore my AirPods and started my album "After Hours" which gave me confidence to fight this battle of misery everyday, music numbed me from the pain. It was temporary but I enjoyed those three to four minutes of my life. When the song "Save Your Tears" played, my soul started to beat with the music and I started singing, perhaps too loudly. "Could've told me that you tore apart...I don't know why I'll run away, I'll make you cry...take me back cuz I wanna stay, save your tears for another day." My harmonies matched with the singer and I couldn't help but feel at ease. When I looked back, they were both staring at me, probably in awe. "Sorry, I didn't know I was singing loudly, I am so sorry!" Melanie clapped her hands in excitement, "Oh-My-God! You sing better than The Weeknd himself, if being a doctor doesn't work out then you can tell me and I'll connect you to a music agency." I laughed, "I just play the guitar, I don't sing that well, I am sorry my sound is like a dying whale." She gasped, "Don't say that, you gave us an in-house concert, I thoroughly enjoyed your jamming and you play the guitar too." Reed looked visibly uncomfortable, "Lets go for brunch Melanie, I missed you so much babe." They both got up from the couch, "See you later Violet, thank you for giving us a concert!" I forced a smile, I was going to be alone today and forever.
After a few hours, my phone buzzed, "Dr. Violet! There is an emergency, Joanna is dying from a cardiac arrest and we need to do an angiography." I jumped up from my position, I was burnt out and not in the right emotional state. I really had a connection with Joanna so I rushed outside, wearing my scrubs at home in a hurry. After reaching the hospital, I quickly got ready whilst others tried their best, we gave her an electric shock but to no avail. "Doctor, we need to give her chest compressions quick!" We tried the compressions but heart beat was not becoming steady, the sound of the monitor was resonating in my ears and then there were my own problems. "Try the shock again!" I exclaimed. I aimed myself but my heart was in my throat, the heart monitor went flat-line. We gave her chest compressions again but this time we all knew the answer. "We lost the patient," Dr. Amna calmly expressed. I let out a shaky breath, "Call her relatives and transfer her body to the cold room." I leaned against the wall of the surgery room, but my heart would not be steady, Sarah put a hand on my shoulder. "We tried our best Violet." It all hurt too much, a single tear escaped from my eyes, there was blood on my scrubs and it would never be washed despite how hard I tried to clean it. "Go change up Violet, and call Reed to pick you up, you're not in the right mental state." I staggered outside, my vision would soon go black. After changing into my previous clothes which were a hoodie with a coat and black jeans, I sat in the lobby. Sarah comforted me and kept offering me water. "Call Reed Violet, it's for your own safety." I nodded my head, almost as if she was telling me to call a stranger. "Hello-Reed?" There was silence on the other side, "Violet? Is everything okay?" My voice kept breaking, "Can you come-pick me up?" There was silence on the other side and I doubted if he would come or not. I waited for a few minutes, closing my eyes looking at the ceiling. I had dealt with a lot of deaths before but this one hurt the most, I wonder if it was the death or my life? I saw Reed come into the lobby and when my eyes locked with his, he could sense something was wrong. I walked towards him so that we could go out together but I kept losing my balance. He put his arm around my shoulder, "It's okay, I've got you." There was an uncomfortable silence between us but I couldn't help but feel safe. The atmosphere was thick between us, even in the car and I really wanted to run away. I was losing consciousness and my blood glucose levels were not stable. As soon as we entered the apartment, I leaned against the door and cried-fuck, I cried in front of Reed. "Hey, it's okay Violet, stop blaming yourself for everything, you tried your best but couldn't save the patient." What about her family? I was sniffling and sobbing, "Sorry I'm so emotional, I should get a hang of myself." He then pulled me into a warm hug, "I'm your friend Violet, tell me, I'll be your friend till the end of time and you can tell me everything and cry on my shoulder, you don't deserve to be alone."