• Jealousy • [ Hopekook ff ]

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TRIGGER WARNING‼️
-Suičide

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Today was incredibly cold in Korea and Hoseok hated that, he hated the cold. It never made him happy somehow, that made it even worse because they were busy today. The smell of sweat surrounded the whole room, hard panting heard from the mouths of the boys while load music banged through the walls. Hoseok felt he was about to faint any moment from the moves he had been repeating for the past 5 hours without break, he was so tired he can hear his breathing in his head. He clapped three times signaling they were done for today, Hoseok fell straight to his back trying to steady his breathing. Hoseok wanted to sleep so badly, he cannot afford to even move a muscle because his whole body was aching.

' Damn, we better win this thing, i never felt so drained in my life. ' The blonde brunette panted trying to catch his breath.

' Im hungry. '

' Me too. '

' Alright before that, let's clean first ye? ' Hoseok looked at them before flashing everyone with his infamous smile. Speaking of that, Jungkook loved his smile. Every time he smiles, he somehow felt happy. His face would go red and the others would tease him about it. I mean who wouldn't? this man is a goddess.

' Then, can we get burgers? '

' No we can't, we are strictly in a diet remember? veggies only Tae. ' Jin uttered to the brown brunette who was whining right infront of him, the others didn't really mind since they've been there a quite a few times in their carriers. Hoseok never really thought anything about it, a piece of bread would fill him up already. Taehyung stopped since his whining won't stop them from not letting him eat what he wants.

Hoseok left the room to go to a near bathroom right beside the dance room. He felt uneasy just by the look of his hands, they were shaking like crazy, the next thing he saw was a white door labeled ' Bathroom' on it, he opened the door and closed it behind with a click. It was a normal bathroom with a sink and a toilet, it looked pretty decent. He grabs his phone out before pulling out a blade from behind, he shifted his face looking at himself in the mirror, a faint smile was the only thing he could pull out. It was normal for people to be jealous sometimes, but for Hoseok it was different. Why did he felt anger? sadness? fear? it confused him to the point he got a little too carried away. No one knew he was doing this and it would be bad if they did. He would die if they knew. He looked down to his wrist hesitating for a bit, he rolls up his sleeve seeing fresh ones and healed ones. It looked pretty from Hoseok's point of view and he wanted more. He was addicted, badly. He always felt relieved after and that makes him calm down. He pressed it roughly on his skin before moving it to the right, the color red started to appear as it increased the more he moved it on his skin. He stopped when he felt satisfied before washing off the blood right after. Surprisingly he didn't cried today, probably because he ran out of tears from crying himself to sleep everyday. He couldn't feel pain sometimes, and that made him worry. But he never really mind, like he would care. He's Jung Hoseok, a talented rich Korean guy who sings and dance to millions of fans around the world, he can't simply die just yet, he still had to do something important before giving up on his dear life.

' Alright, that should do it. ' He stated before fixing himself up before heading back to the dance room, someone might suspect him for being a little too long in the bathroom.

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( is this good? i hope so, the next chapter might confuse some people because like i said im rewriting this and fixing up some things. Ill be posting the next one tomorrow <3 )