bulletproof [riot×tank]

chapter 10 - control freak

Tank:

After a few seconds without oxygen I had to pull away. Riot breathed heavily and stared into my eyes. I loved his hazel eyes. They looked like the eyes of a little puppy. Or melted caramel. I stroked his cheek and the anger I felt just two minutes ago was completely gone. Even though his words 'I don't want your help' hurt me much more than I wanted to admit. I forgot everything but him.
I kissed Riot again, felt his warm skin under my fingertips and his hands on my hips. I gently brushed one dreadlock behind his ear and heard him sigh. He pulled away and tried to catch his breath. He looked up to me heavily breathing and for some reason it looked incredible hot. His chest moving, his muscles tensing under my touch and his fingers on my body, I-.

Suddenly an image of me fucking him until he passed out crossed my mind and I terribly blushed.

Choke me daddy... Ngh... harder...

"Tank...?"
I blinked but this damn image of his naked body under me and the sound of his voice screaming my name were stuck in my brain.

T-Tank.... ah fuck~

"Y-yeah?" I stuttered.

Please... Please fuck me daddy. I need you... I need you to fuck me.

"I'm sorry..."
Okay that's enough of my private porn for today... Or this moment.
I made him raise his head and look in my eyes. They were full of regret.
I sighed. I knew I was right. But I knew he was right too. If that makes sense. I can't control anybodys life. I shouldn't try it not only because it was simply impossible but most importantly because I had to respect own decisions or riscs.
But I was a control freak. I already felt guilty for what has happened today and then this. I don't want Riot hurt. It could happen again. It could get worse than what has happened.
I couldn't imagine the pain of losing Riot. Or Faceless or Scorpion which almost happened today.

"Don't apologize" I said and slowly turned away.
I knew I should probably apologize too but I had a problem with saying sorry since ever. Hard to explain.
"What are you doing?" His voice was the most beautiful and relaxing sound on earth. I closed my eyes and smiled.
"We should see after Scorp" I explained.
"He's okay. His mom is with him"
He gently grabbed my hand and squeezed it. I looked down and stroked his hand with my thumb.
"You need sleep, Tankie" I rolled my eyes.
"Don't call me like that"
"I can call you whatever I want" He smiled and winked.

A-Ah fuck... Please d-daddy.

I pressed my lips together and tried not to imagine how Riot would look like without clothes at this very moment.
Could he... Like try not to be this fucking hot?
"Are you okay?" Riot's voice threw me back to reality.
"Yes" I said quickly and looked away.
"You sure?" He laughed and I wanted to slam him on a table and-
"Yes very sure... Okay... I think you need rest too"
"Probably..." He didn't believe me. But I would've rather died than told him what I was thinking about.
"Kiss me again" he said and smiled. I laughed quietly and looked down at him.
"Of course... Or you try to kiss me"
He stood on his top toes and layed his hands around my head to pull me down to him.
I kissed back and was just happy for the moment.
I carefully pulled away. Riot had still his eyes closed and a small smile on his face. He looked beautiful.

"Let's go" I whispered smiling and pulled him out of the room.
I run my fingers through my dark hair so they wouldn't tickle me. They were a bit too long and hang in front of my eyes.
I wanted to ask Riot if he wanted to stay with me at my house for the night but Mrs. Morales interrupted us.
"So here you are boys. I was looking for you"
As soon as Riot noticed her he immediately let go of my hand.
I forced myself not to look dissapointed. Or feel disappointed. But it still hurt. I put my poker face on and started smiling. I stepped away from Riot and crossed my arms in front of my chest.

"Hey Mrs. Morales. Is... Caven okay?"
Scorp's name was beautiful. Riot explained to me it meant rising sun.
But somehow it didn't feel right to call Scorpion Caven.
"Yeah, he's fine" She looked worried. The guilt made its way back up and slammed claws in my chest.
"I uhm... He sleeps now again. I think I got that. The knive wasn't really deep so we definitely don't need to bring him to the hospital."
"Glad to hear that" Riot said and I nodded.
"Can we do anything for you, Mrs. Morales?" I asked.
"No... Thank you. You brought my baby home. That's enough"
We were the reason he got hurt.
"If anything happens you can call us" Riot smiled softly. "Caven has our numbers."
"Thats so sweet. Thank you" She smiled and I saw tears sparkling in her eyes.
"Have you eaten enough today?" she asked.
"Yes Ma'am." Riot said.
"That's impossible. You look like you haven't eaten in days. I've got something left from dinner."
She told us to follow her and leat us in the kitchen.
"She's the sweetest" I whispered to Riot and he nodded with a huge smile on his face.
"You can sleep here tonight."
"Oh... That's very nice but we can-" I started but Mrs. Morales interrupted me before I could finish.
"No no no. I don't accept a no. It's way to late for you boys going home alone"
"Does she know we are almost thirty?" Riot asked as quietly as possible. I raised my hands in defense.
"Just talk for yourself"
He gasped.
"You're older than me"
I smiled and didn't answer.
"I guess We're staying here tonight" Riot said and stepped a bit closer so our shoulders touched. I sighed and nodded.
"Yeah"

The guest room was small and had only one bed. (uNfAvOrAbLe) But also a small balcony with a glass door. Fancy, fancy.
"I'm sorry." said Mrs. Morales, pointing to the bed. "Someone needs to sleep on the couch."
She nodded to the small couch that stood opposite the bed and somehow looked as if it had been placed there rather by chance.
"We'll manage", I reassured her with a smile.
"Okay", she sighed and smiled too.
"See you tomorrow. Sleep well." She waved again and then closed the door.

"We sleep in one bed, don't we?" asked Riot as soon we couldn't hear her steps anymore and grinned.
"Definitely"
We both knew nothing serious was going to happen. After all, we were only guests here. It would be hard, but we couldn't change it.
"I'll be right back" Riot disappeared in the bathroom and I went to bed. All I had left was my boxer shorts and a T-shirt.
When Riot came out again, he had also taken off his jacket, but wearing a long-sleeved shirt. I bit my lips to say nothing.
He jumped on the bed and seemed unsure of what to do. Then he cuddled to my side and closed his eyes. I had to smile. The view was just too adorable.
"Good night"
"What? No good night kiss?" I asked disappointed. He looked up at me and grinned. He leaned up to me and kissed me gently.
"Good night", he whispered softly against my lips.
I kissed him again and smiled.
"Good night"
Yep, it's gonna be very difficult to control me.

When I woke up and tried to grab Riot's hand in half-sleep, I couldn't find him. I rubbed my eyes and tried to wake up.
"Riot?" I murmured sleepy and looked around. Riot sat on the balcony leaning against the glass. I moaned quietly and forced myself to rise. Mindful, I took the blanket with me from the bed and put it around my shoulders.
I opened the door to the balcony and stepped outside. It had cooled down at night. Riot had leaned his head against the glass and closed his eyes. The stars were sparkling at the sky and the moon threw the most beautiful shadows on his face.
"Did I wake you up?" he asked quietly and looked up to me. I shook my head.
"Not really"
I sat next to him and stretched out an arm. He slipped closer and leaned his head down on my shoulder. I put my arm around his shoulders so that he was also wrapped in the blanket.
"Why are you still awake?" I mumbled and made the best effort not to fall asleep.
"Didn't sleep well" Riot admitted quietly. I kissed his hairline and tried to calm him down.
"It was just a dream"
"No. It was a memory"

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It's getting interesting...

~anon