|Destined With You|

Chapter 19.

Catalina

I woke up to the worst hangover of all times. Thankfully, I found a glass of lemonade with some pills by my bedside. I quickly downed the pills with the lemonade and sighed as I felt my head pound. Just as I stood up for a warm shower, I felt the door to my room open. A smiling Isabella walked into the room-looking gorgeous as usual- even in her casuals.

"Morning." She passed me a tight lipped smile.

"Good Morning." I smiled back. "Thanks for the lemonade."

"No problem." Her eyebrows furrowed in confusion. "How are you feeling?"

"Uh well I think this headache will kill me. Otherwise good."

"Otherwise good." She nodded. "So were you going to shower or..."

"Yep, shower."

With her eyebrows still furrowed, she passed me another smile, somewhat weird. But at the moment, I was too unbothered and tired to ask her the reason. Patting my shoulder, she left the room, and I decided to shower.

As I stripped down and let the water flow over myself, my thoughts wandered to last night. I remembered drinking too much than necessary. I slowly recalled Alex driving me back home. Our conversation being quiet heated up. 'You're always careless, give yourself some time.' And suddenly, realisation hit. The image of his body hovering over mine outside the bedroom door. The sudden kiss, so unexpected. Oh God, I kissed Alexander. All I can do now is hope this doesn't bring trouble.

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Alexander

"She doesn't remember." Isabella announced her return into my room with the announcement, making us sigh. She sat next to Julian on the couch and placed her head over his shoulder, imitating our sigh of relief.

"Are you sure, though?" He caressed her back.

"Pretty sure, yeah."

She murmered, still holding a stern look towards me. Guess she's still upset over the entire matter. But was it entirely my fault? I was drunk, so was Cat. And she had looked up at me with those beautiful eyes, how could anyone ever resist those? You could say she has a beautiful soul just by looking into those eyes. Before I would judge whether it was wrong or right, I was kissing her. Yet, I'm thankful we didn't end up doing another big drunken mistake. It was just a kiss, big deal.

"I can't believe you kissed her." Isabelle groaned, burrying her head in hands. "That brings so much of trouble."

Oh.

"But well, she doesn't remember so-"

"And what about you?" Julian cut me off. He's been rather quiet about the entire situation. This might be the first time he's actually questioned me. I don't have any idea whether he's pissed at me or confused or tired of everything. Whatever his silence meant, it was making me anxious.

"Wh-what about me?" I shrugged nonchalantly. "I'll forget it, pretend it never happened."

"Oh, and you think that would be enough?" He raised his head and looked at me."You think it's that easy to forget to it?"

"Yes?"

"Fuck no it isn't." He almost lost it and yelled out loud. Again, Isabella was soothing him, caressing his hand gently. "Once that feeling reaches you, the sensation of her lips on yours, her scent, her sounds, do you think you'll be able to look at her and try not to remember those? Because me, I could never." Isabella gulped and squirmed next to him. "When I kissed Isabella on our business trip, I swear it was the best decision I made. And it took all my heart to not do it again till I gathered the courage to ask her the question. It's not easy Alex, it isn't."

Isabella wrapped an arm around him and gently rested her head on his shoulder as he pressed a gentle kiss on her hair. I looked at them and wondered whether I'll ever be able to do this. Who would it ever be with? Unfortunately, it wasn't Hannah that came to my mind, it was Catalina. Just as I had expected.

"What do I do?" That's all I could ask, all I wished for.

"Tell her the truth." They spoke in unison.

Yes, the truth. This is all too exhausting, honestly. I am done hiding my feelings, I know she's done as well. A proper conversation is the only thing that can help us now. And I need to do it, before it's too late. Even though she's trying to avoid it, letting it go, I need to go talk to her. Tell her what's going on. I'll tell her the truth, she deserves the truth.

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Catalina

Trying not to distract myself with my thoughts for the thousandth time, I buttered up some bread and filled myself a glass of juice. Out of the corner of my eyes, I saw Alex approach me slowly, looking around to see as if someone was noticing. I hope he's forgotten last night's incident.

"Good morning." He stood opposite me, arms crossed, looking somewhat determined.

"Morning." I took a big mouthful from the bread to avoid conversation. But he didn't seem to get along with it quick anyways. Defeated, I took a gulp of juice and cleared my throat to speak. "So, was the announcement done well?" 

"Yes, all done." He nodded, uncroosed his arms once and crossed them again. Looking down, he shifted his weight from one foot to another, then looked back up into my eyes. "How are you feeling?"

He doesn't remember, lie. Just lie.

"Just a tad bit of headache from drinking, otherwise I'm good." Gulping some more juice, I avoided eye contact from him. "I'll feel well after some rest."

I quickly stood up as I noticed Hannah descend the stairs, trying to avoid her as much as possible. However drunk I might have been, I kissed her fiance, wrong is wrong. Just the radiating look on her face as she saw Alex made me feel extremely guilty.

"Listen Catalina, I need to-"

"I-I'll talk to you later." Cutting him off, I left in a hurry, avoiding the situation as usual.

But as I sat back in my room, contemplating the entire situation, I wondered, is it really worth it? All my life, the one thing I have been good at is avoiding situations. If I had a heartbreak, I would cry it out and forget, when I got pregnant by a stranger, I left him and the city without informing because I was "too scared", and now...developing feelings for the wrong person and avoiding them entirely.

No, it is not worth anything. Consider myself selfish, but I cannot play this game of hide and seek anymore. I can't do this to myself, to Adelaide, to Alex. He might belong to Hannah now, but he needs to know. He has the right to know. No more running away, no more avoiding situations. I'll fight anything that comes my way, I'll fight anything for my love.

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Author's Note : I am sorry for the late updates. I swear I am trying. I just don't...know anymore. Everything is so complicated and tangled up. But yes, I don't need to rant about my personal life here. All I need to let you guys know is that I feel sorry for the late updates, trust me I'm trying. I hope I am not turning the plot shitty. Forgive me.