THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY BOOK TWO (I'll Never Love Again) (girlxgirl)

CH.TWENTY-ONE

When we recall the past, we usually find that it is the simplest things - not the great occasions - that in retrospect give off the greatest glow of happiness.    

_Bob Hope

JAYCEY'S POV

"We're doing this more often than I thought possible," she murmured against my lips. I let out an 'mhm' without pulling away from her because the feeling of her lips on mine was quiet addictive. We stayed tangled on the bed, since it was a weekend she was home and I decided to come over because well, Eric and I aren't actually seeing each other eye to eye.

"I know right," I smiled, finally pulling away so we could both get some air, "I love you Belle."

"You know you shouldn't."

"Uggh," I whined, picking up one of her pillows and hitting her with it, "You always have to spoil the moment by saying that. Is it too hard to just say  'I love you too' back?"

"You want me to say it?"

"Yes you idiot, but not because I asked you to."

She bit the inside of her cheek, "I love you, not because I feel like I should say it cause you said it but because it's what I feel and it's true."

We both stared into each others eyes. I couldn't find it in me to deny that she was telling the truth. Only a fool would think she was lying. Looking in her eyes, a lot of thoughts filled my head. A lot of things had happened years back and I had one important question that I had never got the chance to ask.

"Belle there's something I have to ask you," I said, shifting closer to her and resting my head on her chest. She tangled her hands in my hair and gently massaged my scalp.

"Go ahead," her voice came out a soft whisper.

"Years back, when you were involved in that accident where you lost your memory," I started, not really excited about going back to it, but I had to, "You knew me, you remembered me. And you said things that had me wondering, how did you know me before because I can't seem to remember knowing you."

She hesitated, stopping to massage me and sitting up straight causing me to do the same. Her brown eyes bore into mine in a warm kind way that melted my heart. I didn't know if I was ready to have her tell me the truth but I had waited for four years trying to get myself to remember the past to no avail, so maybe I needed this.

"I know you from way back," she smiled, her hands falling on mine, "I met you when I was ten and you were six. I'm not sure if you remember but I once told you about the princess I fell inlove with."

"I do remember."

"That was you Jaycey, you were young and I was too but I never forgot you. Actually, I kind of stalked you whilst growing up and when my grandpa found out what was happening he went crazy."

"That's why when you got your memory, of you being sixteen, you acted that way," I asked, still trying to piece up everything.

"Yeah, my grandpa could do anything to get what he wanted," she looked distant and suddenly hurt, "He never liked the idea of me being with another woman and later taking over his empire, it's crazy cause Lucy didn't turn out to be a guy fan either."

Oh my god, there's Lucy.

"I wish I could remember everything," I spoke sadly, "But I'm glad that you found me again, it's actually amazing that we crossed paths...even now."

"It's because we're meant to be Jaycey, and what's meant to be will be."

"Maybe, there's no better way to explain it."

She lightly squeezed my hand, "Jaycey, I promise I won't ever hurt you again. I really don't want to put you through shit."

"I trust you Belle."

"And I won't break your trust," she moved her face closer to mine before giving me a light peck on my lips, "Now, I also have a question that I never got to ask you."

I feigned being scared, "What could that question be?"

"Tell me how you ended up working at a diner, I never understood it. And Samantha's dad adopted you? How is that even possible?"

"To be frank with you," I sighed, "I don't remember much about my childhood. That's why it's also hard for me to believe that we knew each other when we were kids because as far as my mind is concerned, I doubt I grew up with the elite."

"But didn't Samantha's dad, I mean your dad tell you?"

"He never talks about it and I doubt that I even want to know really," I bit my bottom lip, smiling right after, "I'm happy that he has always been there though, although he did keep hidden the fact that there was Samantha and Anna. He says he was protecting me."

"I never quite understood that man," Belle laughed, "No offense but he's always grumpy."

"Only to you, he didn't like you because you were with Sammie," I laughed too, suddenly missing my father.

"Too bad for him cause it seems like I'm a magnet to all his children, and his wife too."

I nudged her, laughing although I knew it wasn't a joke. Belle did sleep around with my father's wife, she was in a relationship with me and my half sister; I just didn't know what to think of it anymore or if I even wanted to think of it.

"I'll never do that again though, hurt people like that. I feel like I've always been selfish and that is just so wrong. And I want to be with you, but then there's Leslie and you have Eric," she pinched the bridge of her nose seeming frustrated, "All odds are against us."

"We'll figure it all out, I might file a divorce and end it with Eric," I held her hand like she'd held mine, "Belle, I would do anything for you. I'm ready to risk it all for you because I can't lose you again. I'm inlove with you."

"I'm inlove with you too," she pulled me to her again, "And I really care about you."

"Enough of all that, I'm tired I want to take a nap," I said, lying on her chest again and shutting my eyes. My heart was content. And part of the questions of the past were answered and that made me happy. I was with the woman who'd loved me since she was a kid, the woman who still loved me and cared. I had every reason to be happy, things were going well for once.

"I'll always love you," she said, her voice lulling me to sleep.

"I believe you," I answered in a whisper. I just wished I wasn't being stupid, I hoped every word she said was true because all that I said was and I truly did love her.