THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY BOOK TWO (I'll Never Love Again) (girlxgirl)

EPILOGUE

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.

_From an Irish headstone

BELLE'S POV

Wish I could, I could've said goodbye
I would've said what I wanted to
Maybe even cried for you
If I knew it would be the last time
I would've broke my heart in two
Tryin' to save a part of you

The only place where I never want to go even though I know that going there would ease my pain. The only person who took a bullet for my insanity. Her grave, there staring back at me and I, questioning why I always get a second chance to live when the one's that love me die in my place.

Don't wanna feel another touch
Don't wanna start another fire
Don't wanna know another kiss
No other name falling off my lips
Don't wanna give my heart away
To another stranger
Or let another day begin
Won't even let the sunlight in
No, I'll never love again
I'll never love again, oh, oh, oh, oh

"I always find myself back here again, it's like when I'm at my lowest I find peace in your presence even though you're gone," I whisper, "Well, at first it wasn't peaceful. It killed me, thinking of everything we went through and how you died. I felt like loving someone else after all that would be like betraying you. I made promises to myself that I've failed to keep."

When we first met
I never thought that I would fall
I never thought that I'd find myself
Lying in your arms
And I want to pretend that it's not true
Oh baby, that you're gone
'Cause my world keeps turning, and turning, and turning
And I'm not moving on

"I want to move on, I want to accept what happened and forgive myself because you forgave me," a tear fell from my eye at the thought of her, at the thought of everything that has happened in the past years. If I anything, I'm the one who deserved to be in her grave.

"I love you. I love Jaycey too and I hate how things always seem to go wrong, it's not anyone else's fault; only mine. But --- I want to change. I've hurt a lot of people and as much as I don't think I deserve all the second chances that life has given me, I think it's time that I make use of it. "

Don't wanna feel another touch
Don't wanna start another fire
Don't wanna know another kiss
No other name falling off my lips
Don't wanna give my heart away
To another stranger
Or let another day begin
Won't even let the sunlight in
No, I'll never love

"You meant the world to me Samantha. I wasn't who you thought I would be when we first met. I changed and I hate who I became. I miss you, but maybe it's time for me to let you go. I still love you, you showed me that love truly comes with sacrifices and that is the greatest lesson ever because it's teaching me to build myself in a way that doesn't destroy others."

I don't wanna know this feeling
Unless it's you and me
I don't wanna waste a moment, ooh
And I don't wanna give somebody else the better part of me
I would rather wait for you, ooh

"Jaycey, she's stayed even though I always keep leaving but; this time I feel like she's gone for good," I sniffle, wiping my tears off with the back of my hand, "If it's not you or her then I don't want anyone else. I don't want to feel these things with someone who I probably would hurt. So I'm going to wait, I'm going to wait for her to heal so that I can ---"