THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY BOOK TWO (I'll Never Love Again) (girlxgirl)

CH.TWENTY-TWO

People will never forget how you made them feel.

_Maya Angelou

BELLE'S POV

I noticed how she seemed to still be a little pissed off. She hadn't contacted me for days and well she wasn't done with her project yet and as much as I wasn't in the mood to be chasing her around, I was a bit worried.

"Azola, I'm really sorry about what happened last time," I spoke first since she didn't seem to want to go first. I had to be grateful that she'd agreed to come to my house in the first place.

"What happened?"

"You know what happened."

She threw daggers at me with her perfect hazel eyes, "Are you being serious right now? You're supposed to act like you atleast mean to apologise. You know what Anderson, I was starting to love spending time with you. I thought you were different from how people painted you but clearly I was dead wrong."

"I have a feeling you're falling inlove with me and ---"

"Ohh shut the fuck up," she huffed, rolling her eyes in the process, "You think you have everything all figured out don't you."

I breathed out heavily, "Are you not catching feelings?"

"I can't help myself Anderson."

"I told you not to, this is strictly sex to me, nothing more."

I hated how much I sounded cruel but I did tell her. It's not like I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with her but I already had two other women on my plate, I just couldn't.

"How does sex with me make you feel?," she questioned out of the blue, making me look at her with a surprised expression.

"Alive, you let me control you and that's what I want."

"What about what I want?"

I bit my lower lip, "What do you want?"

"To control you," was her answer. I was taken aback, what did she mean. Control me? Was she crazy?

"How do you intend to do that?"

"Let me do what I want with you, just like I allowed you to do what you want with me the other day."

"No," I couldn't let her do that, never.

"What do you mean no?"

"You're a college student, I'm pretty sure you know what 'no' means," I chuckled in amusement. Did I already ask if she's crazy?

"But why?"

"Why what?," I acted as if I didn't know what she was talking about. What she was asking was too big, I just couldn't do it.

"Anderson, if you don't allow me the opportunity to control you then you'll have to do anything else that I want."

"I'm cool with that."

"I'm serious," she let out in a cute giggle, "There's no going back."

"Spill it, what do you want."

"Date me."

I'm saying it again, she's crazy!

"Are you crazy?," I laughed. Didn't she hear me preach about the 'no getting attached' thingy? But anyways this was better than what she'd asked before and where was the harm in dating her if we were going to keep it a secret, totally none.

"It'll just be for a week. So I can know how it feels like to date the Isabelle Anderson. Please," she pouted, giving me puppy eyes. She looked so darn cute.

"Why does it matter that much, you're probably going to forget about it in the long run."

"Oh trust me Anderson, people never forget how you make them feel."

I gave it a second thought, I didn't know what I was doing or what was pushing me to do it but, "Okay fine, I'll do it."

She jumped up from the couch and jumped straight ontop of me looking super excited.

"Thank you so much," she chirped placing light kisses on my face, "Trust me you won't regret it."

Trust me, I will.

"Now how about we kick-start everything by going to my room and you know, getting to know each other more," I smirked, trying so hard not to burst out laughing.

"Uhh no," she let out in another cute giggle, "We just started dating, we cannot have sex."

"I never said we were going to have sex."

"You didn't have to, I know you have a dirty mind."

I rolled my eyes, "Says the one who's ontop of me."

We both burst out laughing. Azola laid her head on my shoulder and we shared a peaceful silence right after. I didn't know what to think of the situation but I knew that I had dug a grave for myself. Seeing three girls at once wasn't going to end well but I couldn't help it. If you were in my shoes what would you have done? All I knew was that in my heart Jaycey was the most important of all of them and I knew what I had promised her. I'm such a fool to have poured out empty promises to her but what was I to do?

"Do you like romantic stuff," I asked the girl in my arms. She'd gone too quiet for someone who had jumped ontop of me minutes ago.

"Are you the romantic type?," she answered with a question of her own.

"I don't know, but I think romance is cliché."

"We'll go with whatever you want Anderson, as long as I'm with you then I'm game with anything."

"I still don't want you to get too attached," I whispered, more to myself than to her but I'm pretty sure that even if she didn't reply, she heard me. Instead she pulled me into a close hug and kept her head on my shoulder. I decided to place my hands on the back pockets of her jeans and we stayed like that. It was peaceful. I flushed away all of my thoughts and succumbed to the feeling of having the gorgeous hazel eyed girl in my embrace. If my life was a movie or a book it would probably be titled Diary of the polygamous lesbian goddess, I was definitely a legend in having more than one person in my life and I just couldn't break away from it. Maybe it was my calling, my destiny...I'm just kidding. I needed to change, I probably would later in life because now it seemed like an impossible task. I was enjoying myself, what I was doing would hurt a lot of people in the end, including me; but I couldn't stop myself from doing it either way.

So screw me!