Crying Flower [On-going]

CHAPTER 1

"You're mental health ' condition is getting better than before!"Masiglang sabi ng therapist ko...I sighed...Its been 2 years since I got this shit at wala pa ring nagbabago sa nararamdaman ko.Im still sad . Napansin ng therapist ko na hindi nagbago ang emosyon ko at nanatili itong blanko...

"Hey,Cheer up little flower,everything's gonna be alright."hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at pinisil pisil ito para iparamdam na nasa tabi ko lang siya...

My eye's teared.

Wala sa sariling inakap ko siya at doon inilabas lahat ng lungkot ko sa balikat niya..I felt my therapist's hands caressed my back...

Doctor Serevillio has been my second mother for two years.She would always call to check me up how I was doing.Minsan nga dinadala niya pa ako sa restaurants para lang kumain.Knowing that she has her own family.Pero yung nga anak niya ay lahat may asawa na kaya lagi siyang nagrereklamo sakin na wala na raw ang mga baby niya.And yung asawa naman niya,sadly he passed away last year.Mabait rin sakin ang asawa niya.Thay became my family.

"Am I going to be happy again?"Humahagulgol kong tanong...

"Of course you are,the sun will rise up again after a long rain.Lahat ng paghihirap ay tiisin mo muna,and in the end you will be happy just like how you are before."pilit akong kinakalma ng therapist ko...

Saglit pa akong tumagal roon sa mental hospital at umalis na rin...

"Look Lana, andyan na naman yung baliw!HAHAHAHA"Napayuko ako.

I heard those words again.

Palagi nila akong tinatawag na baliw dahil madalas ay nakikita nila ako sa mental hospital for my monthly therapies.

Ang bobo naman nila,Hindi naman lahat ng pumupunta sa mental ay baliw na. Tss,Toxic people.

I decided to stroll a little in the park to relax my mind.

Masyado ng maraming problema sa utak ko.I need to rest it sometimes.

I was sitting on a bench when I saw a family taking pictures happily.We used to be like that,Kung hindi niya lang inagaw ang dad ko.

I bitterly looked at my dad and his son with his mistress.

Kung magkakaanak man ako,I would never let them experience what I am experiencing today.

Society has been fuked up.

I was only 14 years old when I saw how my dad having a mistress and my mom begging him to stay.

~flashback~

"Dexter,p-please...please stay with us"
My mom kneeled in front of daddy who was with her damn mistress.

"A-ate,is mom and D-day okay?"sabi ni Tulips habang nagtatago kami sa cabinet ng kwarto namin dahil sa takot...

I caressed her chubby cheeks and lied.

"Y-yes,they're just having a m-misunderstanding"tulips should not know this kind of problems at a young age.She's just 11 years old.

"Stop it marie!ayoko na sa inyo and stop begging me!"rinig kong sigaw ni dad.

"N-no,please,s-stay.lagi na kitang lulutuin ng paborito mong ulam,ayoko ko na ang maglalabas, ako na rin ang mag aalaga sa mga anak natin,I'll do everything to make you h-happy,just please stay with u-us" Humahagulgol na sabi ni mom.

"I said stop it!"

"Ah!"napatayo ako ng marinig ang Tila nabasag na gamit at ang sigaw ni mom.

I must stop them.

I looked at Tulips and kissed hi forehead.

"Tulips dito ka lang ha,stay here no matter what ok?I'll just check up on mo and dad."nagpapanic na ako pero nanatili ang muka kong kalmado para hindi mag alala si Tulips..

"S-sige ate,come back f-faster ok?"sabi niya at nag lumabas na ako sa cabinet.

Mabilis akong tumakbo papunta sa labas ng kwarto kung san Nagkakagulo si mom at dad,at yung kabit niya.

Natinag sila ng makita ako na umiiyak.

I saw mom lying on the floor at may dugo sa ulo but she's still conscious.

"What the fuck is your problem?!"hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili kong magmura sa sobrang galit sa dad ko at sa kabit niya.

"A-anak sorry di ko s-sinasad--"

"Shut up dad!"I cut him off.sinaktan niya si mom and I can't just zip my mouth for that.

"Alam mo putanginang malandi ka?you should have worked on a bar instead manira ng ibang pamilya dahil kating Kati ka sa lalaki!"That's it.I just exploded.Im damn very angry.

PAK!....

My dad has slapped me.....

Hinawakan ko ang muka ko at masama siyang tiningnan.

"Fuck you and your slut mistress"madiin kong sabi art dinuraan ang harap nila to expose how Rude I am dahil sinaktan nila si mom physically,emotionally and mentally.

Bumalik ako kay mom at tinulugan siyang tumayo....

Pero bago yon muli akong humarap....

"I swear,You'll pay for this dad and you whore."galit na galit kong sinabi at lumayo na.....

~Flashback ends~

From that day my life has changed.

Lagi nalang balisa si mom at kung minsan naman ay iritable.

We had lost all our money ng iwan kami ni dad and mom is working as a waitress in a fast food chain to earn money.

I experienced bullying for two years simula nung nakikita nila ako na pumapasok sa mental hospital.

I repeated my 2nd year highschool dahil nawala ako sa focus ng maghiwalay si mom and dad.

Mom didn't knew what I'm going through.

She was so irritable to the point na kahit kami ni Tulips ay nasasaktan niya na.

I had to do side jobs to pay for my tuition fees and for my check ups. Pero later on si Doc Serevillio na ang sumagot sa mga gastusin sa check ups at medicines ko nang malaman niya ang sitwasyon ko.

I had to cross a very thorny pathway just to make everything better.

At ngayon ay halos nasa kalahati pa lang ako.

Umuwi na ako at nakitang walang tao sa bahay.maybe mom is at the food chain pa at nag grocery naman si Tulips.

I prepared My bag for tomorrow.

Another normal day.

School.
Home.
Repeat.

My life is boring.

Hindi ko na namalayang naktulog na ako.

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Hi Guys!!!enjoy the first chapter!wavyu!♡ wait for the update!