Its just*sighs*i have to act happy i have to keep livinging like everything isnt going to fall apart or i am not going to cry all night i want to not give up but i just think thats the only choice for me but i know there other choice but i cant see it.... where is that light in my darkness? Where is that path i been looking for? Where is the direction to not get lost? I just want to disapper like i wasnt even real in a first place like i didnt even existed... would it make everyone life happy? How much i affect on people? How many people would think there missing something? So many question but none answer i want to see if i kill myself what would happen? I want to do it but i dont want to regret it...
