My G.U.I.D.E

• L'amour •

It's been a week since I told Lafayette how I felt about BJ. He's been asking me non-stop questions about why I feel this way, when did I begin to feel this way, what I'm going to do now that I feel this way and now suddenly, everything we talk about is about the way I feel.

I've tried to act as normal as possible around BJ, even when Lafayette was there. I'm not the best at hiding my anxiety, so I was a bit obvious. Whenever BJ asked if I was okay, I just smiled and played it cool.

Adam was still a bit mad, but he didn't show it too much. He's been spending a lot of time in the library lately. And speaking of... I was going to meet him there now to talk...

"Hey, Adam."

"Hey, (Y/N). Uhm... How was your day?"

"Pretty good. I took two naps and ate half a pizza, so I'm feeling pretty good."

Adam chuckled a bit, then cleared his throat and straitened his back a little before speaking.

"Look... I don't know exactly how to say this to you or how you might react... But I've met someone - someone else..."

I paused for a minute, just staring at him blankly.

"I mean... Believe me, the little lunch and dinner dates we went on were fun, I really enjoyed spending time with you. It's just... You know, with everything going on between us, I ended up running into someone... I know we weren't actually dating? But I'm sorry, I really am. I just - I like this person; a lot. And I think her and I have a ton in common..."

I looked at him as I thought of what to say, then I smiled, a genuine smile.

"I'm glad for you, Adam. I agree, that maybe you and I wouldn't have really worked out. But I'm really glad you found someone who makes you happy. Who is she?"

"Well... Her name is Barbara. She's really amazing, I think you two would get along pretty good. Wow, (Y/N) thank you so much for understanding. I was really nervous for what you might have said, but this is good. Also, I want to apologize for how I acted against you and BJ's friendship. I don't want you to push him away, just because I said to. He seems like your best friend - even though I can't actually see him - but I can tell he makes you very happy."

My smile faltered a bit at his last sentence. Did he know? Was I obvious? What if he figures it out and finds a way to tell BJ?

"Of course, Adam. I hope I do get to meet Barbara soon. Thank you, very much. I hope we can still be friends?"

"Definitely. You, me, Laf and BJ can still hang out. Even go to the Waffle House on weekends." Him and I laughed a little, then sat in comfortable silence for a few minutes.

"Well, I have to go to rehearsal. Thank you, for talking to me and thank you for understanding me and BJ's relationship- friendship! Friend- yeah... I'll see you around?"

"Yeah. Meet you and Laf around... 5?"

"Yep. 5 o'clock. See ya."

I grabbed my bag, walking away, mentally scolding myself for being so nervous about BJ. As if on cue, he appeared next to me.

"So, what did he have to say?"

"He met someone else."

"WHAT?! HOW COULD HE DO THAT - ESPECIALLY TO YOU?! I'MMA FUCKING KILL HIM!"

"BJ! BJ! Calm down, we talked about it and I'm actually happy for him. And what do you mean 'especially to me'?" I stopped walking, making BJ pause.

"Uh... I mean... You're my be-best friend. I just don't wanna see you get hurt. Because then I'm going to have to hurt the people who hurt you."

I smiled softly, blushing slightly, though you couldn't see it. BJ's hair turned a light pink at the tips as he smiled back at me.