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Chapter 15

Hannah's POV
Me and John were waiting at the bus stop to catch the bus that would bring us to the party. Alex and Paul would get on the bus one stop. John wrapped his arms around me and kissed my head. I was so happy with him. He wasn't like everybody told me. He didn't cheat and he treated me with respect. He hadn't said anything about sex either. I think he's the one for me.

The bus was here, so me and John got on it. I was wearing a red dress, it was strapless and rather short, but John told me it suited me well. Thank god it was really summer this year. It was actually really warm outside, even though it was past 9 already. Me and John went to the top deck of the bus and sat down next to each other. He put his arm around my shoulder. I looked up at him and bit my lip, contemplating whether I'd bring up the subject. He looked down "What's wrong luv?" he asked. I shook my head. "Nothing it's just ehm, we've been dating for a few months now and you didn't mention anything about sex yet. and ehm I-I just wanted you to know that I'm ready - If you'd want to -" I got cut off by a kiss. John pulled away and took my hand. "I don't want to rush anything, love. If you're ready, fine. But I don't think I am ready to take your virginity yet." I looked down and nodded, feeling slightly rejected but relieved at the same time. "You're right. Let's wait." John pushed up my face so I was facing him. "I really want it luv, so don't feel bad about it. I just - I don't want to rush it. What if you change your mind?"

I frowned. "What would make me change my mind?" I hadn't noticed that the bus stopped and Paul and Alex got on the topdeck. I looked up at them. "Hey lovebirds. You're both looking great" I smiled at them. They smiled back. "Thanks, you look stunning Hannah" Alex said with a wink and sat down on the bench in front of ours. Paul sat beside her.

Alexandra's POV
We arrived at the party and everything went great. I had danced with Paul, George, and this guy called Richard. Everybody called him Ringo though, since he always had rings on his fingers. He was really cute. He had these sad blue eyes and he was a funny guy too. After a few hours I noticed Hannah was dancing with Ringo. I didn't see John. I just observed Paul, who was dancing with a girl from school. I laughed, Paul looked at me from time to time and made a "Help me!" face.

After a while someone tapped my shoulder. I turned around, and it was John. "Aye, what're ye doing all alone, then?" he asked while sitting next to me. I shrugged. "I thought I'd take a break." He grinned. "Fancy a dance with me?" he reached out his hand, waiting for me to grab it. I did and got up. one dance wouldn't hurt. Besides, we weren't alone and I was determined to not have him kiss me again. We were slowdancing. "So, how are things going between you and Hannah?" I asked. He smiled. "Good. Great actually. She might just be the one." He said, blushing after he realized what he had said. I smiled. "Good." he nodded and we continued dancing.

"Why did you start a relationship with her, if you're always kissing me?" I asked, almost whispering. I was scared someone could hear me. He sighed. "I don't know. I just like you. I love you, but - I really don't know. There's something between us." I shrugged.

The next song was a fast one. I looked around, I actually couldn't dance to save my life so I decided I'd take a seat again. I let go of John and turned around. He quickly grabbed my arm. "Where you going then?" "Taking a seat, I don't feel like dancing anymore." He pulled me towards him and dragged me towards the restrooms. He got into the woman's restroom and pushed me against a wall in a corner. If someone would come in, we would hear them before they saw us, if we stayed in this corner.

Before I knew it, John's lips crashed down on mine. His hand was on my thigh. I put my arms around his neck and pulled him closer to me. I realized what I was doing, so I pushed him off and was breathing heavily. "John - I can't do this anymore. I love Paul, I can't." I felt desperate and blinked back some tears. I didn't want to ruin everything I had. I felt horrible. John grabbed my arms and pulled me in for a hug. "I'm sorry. I just - I love you. I just don't know what to do with my feelings." I nodded.

"Want to go back there?" I nodded. John grabbed my hand, and we walked out of the restroom. When we went outside someone else went inside. I didn't look up to who it was, and just kept walking. The person went inside but before they closed the door, they turned around.

"John? Alex? What were you guys doing in there?"

It was Hannah.