Mon Amour [Jenlisa]

Lifetime pt. 2 (Jennie's POV)

Yesterday, I got married to Kai. I wish I didn't. It was forced. I had to do it to save the company even though dad and I wanted someone else to marry me.

Kai was good, he was a decent man. I was lucky to marry him and not a horny boy that would use me for sex when we got married. He also knew it was a forced marriage.

Lisa didn't though.

And I wished she did, because I knew she would stop that wedding the moment she found out. How did I?

I always could read her eyes. I knew she loved me and I loved her too, but even with that information I was scared to tell her the truth. The truth that I was in fact inline with her, because it might scare her away if it wasn't teally true.

Shr was my bestfriend. My home. My sanctuary. I felt safe with her touches and even just being close to her made my heart skip a beat. I relished those times where I had my head on her chest and I could hear pur heart's beating together as one.

I remember those day when she took me to the hill and there we would look at the stars and talk about space and aliens. I remember in high school when we used to go to the bar because she loved to play the guitar amd there she would play songs for me.

And everytime her eyes lit up.

She looked at me with so much love and care that I knew she loved me. But that love and care went away yesterday. Instead it was replaced with sadness, pain and longing.

I couldn't help but think of Lisa when I kissed Jongin at that altar. I wished that it was her lips that was pressed onto mine at that moment.

Maybe it would've been her if I told her the truth.

"You're thinking of her aren't you?" Kai's voice ringed behind me as I looked outside the window. There was tain hitting it, making the situation even more painful than it already is.

I nod my head while he sighs.

"I'm not jealous Jennie. This is all just fucked up because we both don't like each other anymore. I love Krystal and you love Lisa, but you had to save your company and my father wanted me to marry you, I'm so sorry" He truthfully said as he held onto my hand.

What a shame.

Just two people. Married. But they both don't love each other. We both had what ifs and almosts with other people.

"You know Lisa loved you a lot, I still know that she does. I feel bad for lying to her that I was inlove with you and you were inlove with me"

The tears that I was trying to hold back finally dropped as I remembered my Lili. She was gone for good. And it was all because of one fucking secret that I decided to keep.

I knew she had regrets too.

"She left me a letter for you in the drawer. She said you could read it if you want to, but she's not forcing you" Kai says with a smile and exits the room. We agreed on sleeping in one bed.

I think twice for a moment, but I stand up and make my way to the drawer where Lisa's letter was. I slowly opened it and there I saw a picture attached to it.

Prom.

Remember how many times I said you were pretty this day? I can't remember too, all I could remember was how we danced to the music that night, and you slightly crying onto my shoulder because no one asked you to prom. You were so sad so I danced you. It was the first time we ever danced, and last night was our last.

I read the short message written at the back of the picture. My tears fell even more as I pictured the moment with me in her arms. I sighed.

Looking at the letter that she sent me, I slowly opened it with shaking fingers. I sobbed when I saw the first words.

To My Greatest Love,

I loved you for years, I still do. You were my bestfriend for almost my whole life and just with the thought of losing you made me afraid. And it was the reason for me to convince myself that not telling you how I really felt was the best descision.

I will always remember that one night where I left you. You were crying, hurting when you saw the car drive away as I left. You don't know how much I wanted to go back and hug you, tell you that I was there and would always be there. But I didn't. I left.

And I wish I didn't.

Beacuse right now as I write this letter, and you read this. I am still inlove with you, and I forever will be. Beacuse you are Jennie Kim, the only one in the world and no one can replace you. I relished the moments we had, cherished every hug and kiss, and longed for every look you gave. Because I will never get those things anymore.

But I will tell you right now that our story will not sinply end here. In another lifetime we would continue unfished chapters, and untold stories. In another lifetime I would find you and there I would tell you the truth.

I love you Jennie. And I always will.

In any lifetime.

Yours truly,
Lalisa Manoban.

you're still my favorite girl.