my new life

chapter 51 hayes' pov

well last year alexis took me.i begged and begged her to let me go.she finally did.every day I would go look for meghan but i had no luck.then the day that i lost my friend a year ago came i went down to his grave to put some flowers on it and when i got there his little brother and parents were there.i walked over to his little brother and hugged him.he asked me why his brother died and I answered by saying it was his time to go bud.then his little brother started crying.his brother was 5 when nick died.he is 7 now.when he started crying it caused his parents to cry.so then i teared up.i hugged them and all and said if they needed anything to contact me.i drove off and went to the drug store.i got bad drunk and high so i went to peytons house.he had stopped with all that cause he went to jail..so when i got there he told me i could come back when i wasn't drunk or high so i went to this apartment and had an overdose.i went to the hospital and nash came and got me.he took me to his house.him and skylyn live together now cause i was so bad that my parents left me and nash.well skylyn didnt want to leave us so nash begged and begged for him to keep her.so he got her.well anyways about 3:00 in the morning i snuck out and my buddy connor came and got me.we got high and drunk every night.i live with him and i have sooo much funn!
well i dont live with him anymore...
two months ago i couldnt sleep.
i tossed and turned every night.
for some reason i got to thinking about meghan and peyton.
they were all that was on my mind.
so i got out the bed grabbed all my stuff and walked out his house.i was sitting outside and i called peyton
and said i needed him and i need him now
he came and got me and ever since then we have been catching up on everything!
i go to celebration recovery for doing drugs and drinking.i even went over to see nash! he is doing great! but i miss meghan ALOT! i dont wanna text or talk or see her though..i dont mean that mean or anything and i know that it dont make since that i miss her but dont wanna see her or talk to her but i just don't want her in my life right now....
we will get in an argument and then she will break my heart and i will break hers and just will be like junior high and high school...
i talk to matt and jack alot but i tell them not to tell meghan we talk though cause i dont want her knowing!!
peytons even got him a girl now! she is cool.
her name is hailey.
they are so cutee! she don't live with him though cause her parents dont think she can live on her on yet..
but im kinda glad cause i live with peyton and if i see them kissing or hugging or anything like that then meghan will come up in my head and i cant let that happen!
but my life is been good since i have been living with peyton!

{thought i should do a hayes pov chapter! he hasn't been in the book in awhile but he will be😉}