"Twisted Connubiality"(Finished)

"Twisted Connubiality"

I'd Rather
By: Luther Vandross

I thought some time alone
Was what we really needed
You said this time would hurt
More than it helps
But I couldn't see that

They say: to have a successful marriage, couples must treat themselves as best of friends.
  But what if, you marry your best friend? Does this mean that their marriage is bound to be successful?

  No. It isn't! We have different stories about marriage. Either with bestfriend or not. Take it from me and my Kersy. We've been through a lot of pain ever since.

  He have hurt me, so do I. Those pain became the foundation of our strong grip to each other, to what we have.

I thought it was the end
Of a beautiful story
And so I left the one I love at home
To be alone, alone

   "I love him so much that I accepted all the pains. all of it which made me think if do I really deserve this too much pain with him? Or is it the Earth's way to tell me that it was the Idea of being with him that pained me? Whatever the reasons are, I just can't stop loving him. I don't know how. They say that you have to get hurt before you wake up. Well, I've been hurt by him so many times..
  will I wake up? can I wake up?"

  He did woke me up. I gave up, akala ko wala na. Na hanggang doon lang talaga kami. But then he started the chase. He pursued me. Didn't gave up to win me back.

And I tried
And found out this one thing is true
That I'm nothing without you
I know better now
And I've had a change of heart

  Matagal bago siya nagkaroon ng lakas ng loob para ipaglaban ang nararamdaman niya. It was almost too late. But thank you Kersy, for still trying, striving to have me back.

I'd rather have bad times with you
Than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm

Than safe and warm by myself

  

I'd rather have hard times together
Than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one
Who holds my heart
Ohh, Yeah

And then I met someone
And thought she could replace you
We got along just fine
But wasted time
Because she was not you

Hindi lang tao ang naging sagabal sa love story namin na ito. It was our fear. We lost the courage to confess in the first place kaya umabot sa ganito.

   Kahit naman ako dapat gumawa din ng paraan para at least umamin sa kanya kahit maging unrequited love man ito pero before I could do that, he had chosen. That was Brianne not me.

We had a lot of fun
Though we knew we were faking
Love was not impressed
With our connection
Built on lies, on lies

  We first slammed the fraudulent words in each other's faces before we could even confess. That's why this is how everything went.

So I'm here
'cause I found this one thing is true
That I'm nothing without you
I know better now
And I've had a change of heart

Fear is powerful. But love is everything. Fear can be inferior to love because with love, nothing can oppose you.

I'd rather have bad times with you
Than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm
Than safe and warm by myself

I'd rather have hard times together
Than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one
Who holds my heart
Who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me
Like I've done you
I can only prove the things I say with time
Please be mine

I'd rather have bad times with you
(Please be mine)

   I thought that the idea of being with him pained me. No. Because the moments I have with him are worth cherishing. I love his flaws. Everything in him.

Than good times with someone else
(I know)

I'd rather be beside you in a storm
(Anytime)

Than safe and warm by myself
(Surely, surely, baby)

I'd rather have hard times together
Than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one
Who holds my heart

I'd rather have bad times with you
(Surely)

Than good times with someone else
(Surely)

I'd rather be beside you in a storm
(Oh yeah)

Than safe and warm by myself
(All by myself)

I'd rather have hard times together
Than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one
Who holds my heart

   "Good evening Shine" he greeted me with a kiss.
"Good evening Kersy. Magbihis kana at malapit na itong maluto."

   "Nasaan ang baby boy ko?"
Hanap ni Nick sa panganay namin.

  "Dadaaa" masiglang sigaw ni Sebby na naglalakad papalapit sa papa niya na naka-stroller.

  "Wow ! Ang baby ni Dada, very good. Magaling na maglakad. Come here! Come to Dada."

Humahagikgik naman si Sebby habang papalapit sa papa niya. Hanggang sa nakarga niya na nga ang bata.

  "Have you been a good boy to Mama?" Ngumisi lang si Sebby.

"Shine, hindi kaba pinahirapan ni Sebby?"
"Hindi naman masyado. Behave siya today. Panay tulog lang iyan kaninang umaga hanggang hapon. Gigising, kakain, manunuod. Natatawa nga ako eh kasi kahit alam ko na hindi niya naiiintindihan iyong mga dialect sa tv, tawa lang siya ng tawa."

  "Very good baby!" Kinurot ni Kersy ang pisngi ni Sebby.

"Tomorrow, we will go to Jollibee. You want to go there huh?"

  Tumatawa si Sebby. Hayy! A beautiful sight to behold.

Ibinaba muna ni Nick si Sebby sa stroller at nagbihis.

Habang inihahanda ko ang kakainin namin.

  Naupo na kaming lahat sa mesa. Si Sebby ay pinaupo ni Nick sa upuang pang-baby.
  We prayed. Nang magmulat ako ay nakangiting tumingin sakin si Nick. Nagtaka ako kung bakit.
Itinuro niya ang gawi ni Sebby na ngayon ay nakapikit na pala habang magkadikit ang mga palad. My son is the best gift I have ever received.

  "Thank you for giving me Sebby, Shine, and thank you God for giving them to me"

  Napangiti na rin ako.

"I love you, Kersy"
  "And I love you more, Shine"

  This is not a story of unrequited love. What Kersy and I have is a love reciprocated at the right time and expressed at the perfect timing.

I'd rather have the one
Who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one
Who holds my heart

Who holds my heart