Untie me from my PAST (Infinite Dongwoo ff)

12. Confusion? Help me Understand

Hyun Mae's POV

I can't help not to act this way, gloomy and all. I feel like my heart was stabbed after what I heard from Dongwoo last night.

I know that he still can't forget about Hee Young but what am I to him? What are those sweet gestures he showed me? I also know that I should be understanding but I can't help not to feel hurt.

"Yah, what's wrong with you?" I heard someone asked and closed the water dispenser. From too much thinking, I didn't notice that my cup is already full.

"Are you okay?" I turned and saw Hoya. He took the cup full of water from me and escorted me to the couch. I leaned my elbows on my legs and hid my face on my palms as I sat down.

"I don't know," I answered his question.

"Is it about Dongwoo?" I look at him.

"I saw you cry before leaving Dongwoo's house."

"It hurts," I said as I look down. "It hurts to know that I can't defeat Hee Young from Dongwoo's heart."

"Are you hearing what you're saying? Hee Young is dead," he said like he wants me to realize something. I looked at him with exhaustion.

"That's exactly it is. She's already gone but Dongwoo can't seem to forget her," I brushed my bangs away from my face with my hand. "He will never forget about her."

He's about to say something but was interrupted by the call from his HT.

"I'll get back to you. Let's continue this conversation later," he said and left in a hurry. I let out another sigh and stood up. I'm at work right now so I shouldn't bring my personal problem here.

As I walk my way to my post, Dongwoo came inside the recreation area. We both stared at each other for a moment. I can see in his eyes that he wants to say something. I waited for it but ended up waiting for nothing. I hanged my head down and continued walking. 

Dongwoo's POV

I've been thinking of Hyun Mae all day. I'm aware of what happened last night and I feel like the worst jerk because of that.

I can't concentrate on my report so I decided to go to the recreation area to make myself a cup of coffee. As I enter the recreation area, Hyun Mae is about to get out. We stared at each other for a moment. I want to say something, to say sorry but my voice run away from me. She continued walking out.

"Hyun Mae?" I called her but as I turn around, she's already gone. She's been avoiding me since this morning and I feel depressed about it.

'S**t, Dongwoo! You're such a loser!' I said on my mind. I went back to my post and saw Hyun Mae on her post, typing something on her laptop. I let out a heavy sigh before walking towards her.

She looked up at me when I got near her. I opened my mouth but nothing came out. Come on, Dongwoo, say something!

"I'm busy so if you're not going to say something, just go back to your post," she coldly said while staring at her report. I hanged my head down and lifelessly went back to my post.

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Our shift ends and it's now time to go home. I faced Hyun Mae and is about to say something but she immediately stood up, grabbed her bag and went out the station.

"I'll go ahead now," she simply said the others.

"Ne, Mae Mae. Have a safe trip home," Sungjong said and stretch his arms as he stood up.

I stood up as well. I want to call her but damn this voice! I frustratingly raked my hair then rest my hands on my waist.

"Go catch up on her," Sungkyu suddenly said. I stared at him with questioning look.

"Come on, dude. I know there's something going on between the two of you," he gave me a teasing stare.

"What are you waiting for? Go!" he said when he noticed that I'm just staring at him. "I know I'm handsome but staring at me won't resolve anything."

I chuckled at what he said. I grabbed my cap and hurriedly run to catch up on Hyun Mae. I went straight to the bus stop knowing that she's taking bus every time she goes home. I hurriedly run towards the bus when I saw that it's about to go.

I ride on it while catching my breath and I saw Hyun Mae shocked to see me. She avoided my stare when I walked towards her. I sat on the seat behind her. The bus started to go but I still don't know what to tell her.

Hours passed by and I noticed that she starts to headbang. I tilt my head to take a clear look of her and saw that she's asleep. Her head starts to move sideways and will bang on the window but I immediately caught her head with my hand. I slowly and quietly sat beside her, my hand still holding her head. I carefully put her head on my shoulder and watch her sleep. I only noticed now that she has long eyelashes. My lips curled up.

A child suddenly looked at us, kneeling on her seat. I brought my index finger on my lips as a gesture for her not to make a noise. The child giggled quietly and nodded. Her mother told her to sit properly and she obeyed.

I looked outside the window and realized that we are almost at Hyun Mae's stop. I wake her up by lightly tapping her cheek.

"Hyun Mae wake up. We are already at your stop," I quietly said but she seems to be too sleepy. She moved but only to cuddle closer to me. I once again wake her up by shaking her shoulder this time. She flatter her eyes and looked outside the window.

"Omo! Ahjussi, wait a minute. I'm going down," she said as she stood up. She hurriedly walked towards the door and bowed at the driver before going down the bus.

Eh? Didn't she notice me? She must have forgotten that I am in the bus with her. I felt disappointed and hanged my head down but I still hopped out of the bus and followed her.

Hyun Mae's POV

I knew that Dongwoo was with me the whole time and I know that he sat beside me too. I am really sleepy that time so I just let him be.

I also know that he wants to talk to me but whenever he approaches me, he never speaks and I feel frustrated because of that. Now he's following me but still doesn't say a word. What is wrong with him?!

"Will you stop following me?" I said as I stopped walking and turn around to face him. He opened his mouth like he's about to say something but he still won't speak.

I frustratingly let out a heavy sigh and turn around. I continued walking but stopped again when he finally spoke.

"I'm sorry," he said, almost whispering. I closed my eyes then my tears suddenly streamed down my cheeks.

So that's it? Sorry? Why is he saying sorry? Is it because he's sorry that he can't return the love I have for him? I looked up to stop my tears from falling but it's no use.

"I.. I still can't forget about Hee Young but... I'm starting to fall for you too," he said which made me turn around and face him again, shock registered on my face. He likes me too? He put his hands on his pockets and stared at me with his warm eyes.

"Help me," he softly said. "Help me forget... Help me move on... Untie me from my past."

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Finally, Dongwoo! You've said what you feel!

By the way...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! What's your new year's resolution? Mine? I don't know yet. Hihi

Hope you enjoyed this chapie ^^