Hiding Love

PART TWO•CHAPTER ELEVEN

I get home bumping into my dad. "Hey honey how's this school year going for you so far?" He asked. "It went downhill ever since you told me you can't afford dorms dad." This blows.
"Oh yeah, that, right..." he said. Which is bullshit because he's a company owner and businessman. He should have all the money in the world. "Well be happy we have a home right? You're not hanging out with Cane are you?" "Me and him are getting some space..." "that's my girl!" He said that as he patted me on the back and walked away. "I'm gonna take a nap okay?" "Ok"
-Dream-
We were kissing so passionately as he shoved his tongue into my mouth. I rub my hands on the back of his neck as he ran his fingers through my hair. I led him towards the corner and he stroked my leg which gave me the chills.
-Reality-
And then I soon woke up just to reveal that is was only a dream. I take my pillow case out of my mouth and I shove my face into the pillow sobbing and crying my eyes out. I miss him so much. I'm so upset. It's my fault that this happened. It's my fault that we broke up. I screamed and punched my wall only leaving me with a bloody fist. I grind my teeth together as I open my phone just to reveal no text messages or notifications except one missed call from my mom but that was it. I threw my phone across the room hitting my bedroom door causing a loud bang. I then plopped down right back onto my bed staring at the bedroom ceiling. 20 minutes later I'm still here. I sigh and then sit up. Don't mind me, I'm just totally lost in my anxiety. I walk into the kitchen as my mom shouts: "supper!" My dad is still on a phone call. "Ok" I said. We start eating at the table. Both of my parents are staring at me. "What?" I asked. "Nothing" dad said. "Ok..." "what's wrong honey?" Mom asked. "Oh uh, nothing..." I said. "I know when you are lying, right now you are lying." Dad said. I roll my eyes. "Me and cane broke up last week" I said. "Oh... well what else is bothering you?" Dad asked. He said that we needed some space..." "I never liked that guy, I hated him since we were kids."dad said. "You guys grew up together!?" I asked. "Oh yeah, I know that guy like the back of my hand. There was actually a time when I considered him my best friend. I was foolish then though..." dad said. "Ew, you-and him!? Besties?" "Yep, seven years until I figured out He slept with your mother... haven't talked to him since." my dad said."your father doesn't like to talk about Cane Wilson. They have beef. BUT I'll tell you what, if you miss him and love him as much as you say you do then I will teach you how to get him back..." mom said. My dad left the dinner table. "Why? So you can start more trouble?" I asked. "No!" "Ok mom, I'm all ears. How do I get him to want me again?" I asked. "A kiss. Thats how I got your father back, just one simple kiss. It was when he was in the middle of a conversation. It was actually quite funny...his face expression was priceless!" "I bet it was! Thanks for the advice ma." "No problem."
-The Next Day-
I wake up and I take my phone that I cracked yesterday off my floor. Someone texted me. It was Cane. "Hi" seriously? I don't think I'm even gonna answer that. It's odd cause he usually types me paragraphs about how he misses me. What the f*ck is hi? Oh we're not together. I forgot about that...then why is he even bothering to text me? I type hey back. He doesn't answer. He just left me on read. My alarm clock didn't even ring yet. I'm gonna have breakfast with Dirk. We approach the counter at the deli. "Ladies first" Dirk said. That reminds me of Cane. Everything reminds me of Cane! "Don't..." I said. "Oh?" Dirk said. "I'll get a vanilla bean mocha with caramel and whip cream and I'll also take a croissant." I said. "And I'll take chocolate milk with a cinnamon bun" Dirk said.
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We walked to nearby picnic tables.
"So hows your boyfriend?" Dirk asked.
Why
"We broke up, he needs some space" I put in quotes. "Aw I'm sorry..." "it's fine." "You see that's what separates the dumb people from the stupid people. You were dumb to do whatever you did to make him be mad at you but he's stupid cause he let you slip away. He broke your heart so he's gonna regret leaving you." "Bet" I said. "Also he'll probably miss the sex with you. He can screw anyone but it will never be the same. He will always think of you. You're special, Sarah... and Cane is a fool. ALSO any guy would be blessed enough to have you. Jeez, when Cane was with you, you probably made him feel like the luckiest man alive. Cause nobody deserves you Sarah you're beyond perfect. No one deserves you. You deserve better than to be stuck in a world where it's a bunch of idiots that will just repeatedly break your heart again and again and not respect or appreciate what you have to offer. I feel bad for you, but now you're not his anymore. So at least that gives me an excuse to do this..." He leans in and kisses me. I kiss back a little only because I felt it Dirk just warmed my heart. He just made me feel like I'm the only girl in the world. As much as I try not to admit it...I hate to say it but I think I love him almost as much as Cane. He has me in what feels like a trance. This was more than Dirk just being a lusty teen. This is what felt like love. Oh god...but what about Cane? HOLY SHIT I HAVE AN IDEA! Jealousy! Yep this is gonna be interesting! I feel evil. I pulled his face to mine I ran my finger through his hair he pulled me closer to him he stroked my arm and he put his hands on my shoulders. Then I broke the kiss. Our eyes met. WAIT! This is wrong! What am I doing? "Come here Sarah, I know you're sad. Come here. I know, I know. "I can't love two people at once." I said. He wraps me up into his arms and pulls me into a tight hug. He rubs my shoulders and kisses my cheek. "It's fine, it is. I get it." He said blushing. He rubbed my back and shushed me like a crying baby. "It really isn't okay though..." I said "it's fine, it's fine." He said. " I love you both. I can't choose." I said. He sighs. "Come on, you're just confused my love...we'll walk together.. we can still play a little game though. You can make Cane jealous!" He smirked, I smirked back and we held hands as we walked in the building. Nick catcalls me across the hall. Vickey gives me a dirty look. Brenda and Derrick look confused the gym coach passes us saying good morning. Then finally the moment we all been waiting for... Cane looks at me and then takes a second glance. He's shocked.