𝐍𝐎 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 | Hwang Hyunjin

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Hyunjin and I arrived at school together.
We both said goodbye to Mr. Suh and he drove away.
We entered the building.

This is normally where everyone goes his own way.

And so was it today.

Hani was standing there, waiting for me.

I went towards her, with a little smile on my face.

"Hey (Y/n), Hey Hyunjin", she greeted both of us.
That means Hyunjin was still there.

I turned around to see Hyunjin looking at me.

He looked shocked, but also disappointed at the same time.

I looked to the ground.

He must feel very bad.

He must thinking, that I am thinking that he's a liar and that's the reason why I still talk with Hani as if there was nothing.

But I don't think he's a liar.

I just think, that what he think he saw wasn't the truth.

That were a lot of 'thinks'.

But even if he would say the truth, it's not really easy to just cut off you friend like that.

It's something that don't happen from one day to another.

At least not for Hani.

I mean, how could I do that? She is such a sweet and nice person.

She seemed to be so fragil. And you can't just drop something that fragil, it will break.

But I didn't planned to drop Hani.
She was still my best friend.

She also has other friends, but she still spends most of the time with me.

But I still felt bad, because of Hyunjin.
He seemed to be very, very disappointed.

And that hurts so much to see him so much.

It just felt like I was betraying him.

But why am I even caring so much?

Why do I always think so much about him?

It's not like he's that important in my life.

He's a friend, of course.

But it's not like I need him.

I should be more independent.

It starts to feel like I am attaching myself to him.
And I don't even want to.

I shouldn't do that, it's not good for me.

The life is a lot easier when you are more by yourself.

But sometimes I just think these things.

Like yesterday. When we hugged.

I know that I was so sad when he pulled away.

But why?

It was just an usual hug, he just wanted to comfort me.

But I wanted it to last forever.

I didn't wanted to let go of him.

And that's just embarrassing, that I think like that.

But these are things I would never tell anyone.

These are just thoughts, that were in my head for like such a short moment that they aren't even important.

I should just forget that.

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After school, I went to the entrance, were Hyunjin always waited.

But he wasn't there.

He looked pretty pissed this morning.
And I can understand that.

Maybe he didn't wanted me to get home with him, so he already left.

It felt like he forget me.

But I shouldn't show him that I was sad, just because he's not here for once in the four weeks we did stuff together.

Maybe he just has something other to do.
He has other friends, I am not the only one.

I needed to play it off that I was a little bit disappointed, so that everything seemed normal.

Hyunn

Hey Hyunjin

I don't need a drive today

My mom came

And we're doing something
together

K

Cool

Hope u have a good day
with ur mom

Thx

That was a weird chat.
It was just cringe.

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The next morning, I wanted to school with the bus.
I won't tell Hyunjin about that, but I think he will be happier too.

I got ready.

It was already a little bit late, I hope I'll catch the bus.

So I grabbed my bag and went outside.

But there was a car.

A big, black Mercedes.

It was Hyunjin's car.

Not his one, but his dad's car.

So he came?

But that would be so weird, to go to school with him now.
I must be so pissed off.

So I went to the car and opened the door.
"I'll take the bus", I said and wanted to close the door.

But Hyunjin leaned over and hold it open.

"What? Why the bus? I tought you hate the bus."

"Aren't you mad anymore?", I asked.

"No, it's ok. I understand you."

"Hyunjin, you know, I don't think you are lying, but maybe you just didn't knew what you saw and-", I started explaining, but Hyunjin cut me off.

"(Y/n), it's ok. I'm not mad at you."

I gave him a little smile.

He smiled back.

"Now get into the car, Babygirl", he laughed.
I got I to the car.

So we're good.
And I'm really relieved.

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(A/n)

Ewww that's so trashy