- - say something - A great big world - -
~The way home seemed to be endless.
It was just so long.
Why did it take so long?
I just wanted to get home.
I tried to go faster, but my legs were just so heavy.
It felt like I had bricks on my feet.
But after an eternity, I arrived at my house.
I went in.Nobody seemed to be home, guess my mom was still somewhere, I don't even know where because I don't really listen when she tells me stuff like that.
I took off my shoes and went to the bathroom, to take a shower.
It was a pretty long day, I needed to shower.
I let the warm water falling down on me.And I think about what just happened.
What did I do?
I think I was a little bit too harsh, maybe.
I've could've said it a little bit nicer.
He must me so hurt now.
But I didn't thought about his feelings.I just thought about my own feelings, how hurt I was.
I only thought about myself.
Like I always do.
I ruined everything.
Again.
Why do I always ruin everything with him?
But it wasn't my fault.
He just shouldn't have caught feelings.
But maybe I should've been more sensitive.
When he really likes me, it must be even harder for him.A tear ran down my cheek.
It blended in with the water from the shower.I am such a bad human.
Hyunjin wasn't wrong when he said I was heartless.
Another tear ran out of my eyes.
And Hani said it too.
Oh my god.
I started crying more and more.
I really don't deserve to be on this planet.
I always hurt people.
I'm so insensitive, I don't even notice it when I hurt persons.
I think I never cried that much.
After maybe one hour of sitting in the shower and crying I got changed and went into my bed, where I cried even more.
I didn't even noticed when I fell asleep, it must be around 5 oder 6 am.
When I woke up the next morning, I just felt like shit.
I wanted to die.
I just wanted to disappear.
It's just better for everyone when I'm not there.
I didn't wanted to get out the bed.I just wanted to stay there until I starve.
But then I grabbed my phone.
Maybe I should text someone.
And I have only two options to text someone.
So let me text both of them.Powerpuff girlzz😳🥵
Bros
I need to talk to u
Dramaqueen E
Omg what happenedU never say something like that
Hey Hey Chae
U scare me what's wrongDramaqueen E
Omg did u kill someoneWtf no
Can u pls come over
It's urgent
Hay Hey Chae
Don't stress we will be there
in a minuteDramaqueen E
RightU guys re angels I LUV U<3
Hey Hey Chae
Where not there now so
don't get ur hopes too highWHAT
Dramaqueen E
Chill ur balls we will be there
soonBut it's still early so I may take
a lil longerHey Hey Chae
It's literally 1 pmDramaqueen E
Yeah but it's summer breakStfu and move ur ass over
here girlssssI opened the door.
Both of my friends were standing there."Oh my god sweetie, you look horrible", Esther said as soon as she saw my puffy face.
"Thank you", I responded sarcastically.
"Did you cry?", Chaeyoung asked a little bit more sensitive.
"What happened?", the other girl also asked worried now.
I made a hand move for them to come in.
"Something happened yesterday. Let me tell you."~~~~~
(A/n)I didn't update yesterday how weirdddd
But it was just one day
And I was busy
For once
I was busy with re-watching Back to the future
Like seriously
Okay but I also did other stuff
I hope nobody missed me too much
And OMG THIS SONGGG
IT REMINDS ME SO MUCH OF METEOR GARDEN
every time I hear it I want to rewatch the series
But I watched it like 3 or 4 times
And there is so much other stuff to watch I don't have the time to rewatch Meteor Garden another time
But every time I hear this 'SAY SOMETHING I'M GIVING UP ON YOU'
I think about Meteor GardenI think I'm boring everyone rn
Pls excuse me I'm just getting so cringe
Bye my hoes
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𝐍𝐎 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 | Hwang Hyunjin
Fanfiction~ "So that is what you think of me? That I'm a heartless fuckboy without feelings?" ~ But who is the real one without feelings?