i lied.
it will always be you.
i know i should move on.
you cause me so much agony.
but why should i?
all i know is how to miss you.
if i give up on you, i have nothing left of me.
maybe i love you.
or maybe i want to love you.
maybe you love me.
or maybe i want you to love me.
the memories make me laugh.
all we ever did was smile.
now the scenarios in my colourful soul are the only things that keep me alive.
god what have you done to me?
i can't stay up late without thinking of you.
when someone mentions you, i'm falling down the rabbit hole, landing in the memories with you.
kiss me.
i should've said.
don't go.
i should've yelled.
i can fall in love with you.
i should've cried.
instead i threw up my pain in dirty bathroom stalls as the walls were sweating with heat.
starve yourself.
said my mind.
you don't want to eat that.
it had said.
remember his smile?
it cried.
and then all the sudden, breathing seemed far too difficult.
why did i care about you so much?
we would never have lasted.
and we probably never will.
hang up.
you said.
stay.
you whispered.
come with me.
you begged.
i should've listened.
i should've moved forward.
i hate him.
i said.
he treated me like shit.
i ranted.
i wish i saw the red flags.
i whispered.
and yet, you defended me.
god what an angel you must be.
love me.
wait for me.
please.
you're the only reason i keep breathing.
YOU ARE READING
sickly sweet
Poesiathis is a book of poems or thoughts/feelings i have, all written down. heartbreak, love, pain, happiness and many more emotions and feelings of emptiness are all spread out in the words of this book. each chapter has a category, you'll find pattern...
