went little by little by little until there was nothing at all
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"hey hwa—"
"can we talk later? my head's hurting too much. i'll call you later." he had cut her off that one morning. it was the first time of many and she never expected that it was going to be the norm from then on. she could never have a normal phone call with him ever since then.
he was always either too drunk or stoned to comprehend anything, or too hungover to handle a conversation with her over the phone. she felt him slowly slip away from her hold.
every time he declined her call, she felt her heart breaking. it kept happening as time went by, from being unable to stay on the phone for over a minute, to ignoring her calls completely.
his addiction to drugs and alcohol were getting out of hand. he had even dropped out of school, leaving her to spend her school days with the only other person she had—yunho.
"i'm serious, yunho. if he doesn't care about his own well-being, why should we? just let him do whatever he wants, he's the one who's going to regret it all in the end." she scoffed bitterly, sipping on her drink while the two sat on their usual table in the cafeteria, a usual third party missing.
"shouldn't we at least try, though? we can help him."
"don't you think i've tried?! i've been doing that for the past four months but he wouldn't listen! i'm tired, yunho. i love him so much but i'm so, so tired." she spoke lowly.
"but you can't— you can't just give up on him now. he loves you,"
"well if he does, he sure has a shitty way of showing it." she mumbles, rolling her eyes. "like i said, i think it's best to wait for him to be ready to tell us what's going on."
"but i'm tired of waiting, yunho. aren't you tired? we can help him! i know we can! but we can't do that if he won't tell us what's going on, can we? if anything bad happens to him because of all the drugs and alcohol in his system, then serves him right. we can't say we didn't try to help, because we did. he just never wanted it." she states nonchalantly, as if it wouldn't worry her at all if anything bad actually did happen to her boyfriend.
"you don't mean that. look, i know you're hurt but as far as i know, he's in a bad place right now. even if he doesn't want to tell us, i'm sure it's for a good reason. he probably doesn't want us to worry. and i know it's only causing us to worry even more, but we have to understand him. who knows how bad his situation really is? seeing how he turned to drugs and alcohol, it's probably pretty bad. the least we can do is stick by him so he doesn't do anything stupid."
she didn't want to admit it but yunho was right. seonghwa needed them. how selfish of her to only think of herself in the situation. currently, everything was supposed to be revolving around seonghwa but all she thought about was how her efforts had gone to waste.
"but don't you think he could also be hiding something from us? what if the reason he doesn't want to tell us about his problem is because he doesn't have any? maybe he just started taking drugs and now he's addicted? what if he just doesn't want us to know he's a drug addict?"
"you're not making sense. we already know he is so what is it that he's still hiding? that's what we need to know. and until we find out what it is, we're not going to leave him. no matter how you think of it, i still think he has a good reason. hwa wouldn't be doing anything to hurt you on purpose. he loves you too much for it. i hope you remember that." yunho stands up, collecting his trash, ready to go back to class and she stands up too.
"i really hope he does. i don't want to be waiting for him only to find out i should've left when i saw the signs. i hope you're right about this, yun." they walk out the cafeteria together, making their way to their next class.
