The Inevitable - Poetry Book

You

I can't do it, not tonight.
Please just let me live my life,
Without you haunting me day and night.

You blur my vision,
And haze my mind.
You stir my inner thoughts,
To how you see fit.

My anxious movements,
Waiting for you to move next.
I wait, looking from afar,
As you dictate my life.

"I'm stupid",
"I'm ugly",
"I'm fat",
What else do you have to say,
To make me doubt me more.

I want you gone,
I want you far from sight,
I can't deal with you anymore.

These thoughts you give me,
Make me see what you see,
Make me feel what you feel,
When looking at me.

I want to leave,
I want to forget,
But how can I do this,
With you trailing my back.

I need to separate,
I need to be free,
But how can I do that,
With your words in my head.

I can't make you leave,
I can't make you disappear,
I can't cut you out of my life.

I can go hours without seeing you,
Without hearing you speak,
And I thrive.

But soon after the thought trickle back,
I hear your voice chasing my life.

I need you gone,
I need to be free,
But it's hard when,
You are me.