I'd never been kissed before this moment.
Harmless, flirtatious, once-off encounters are not permitted in Abnegation. Maybe in other factions like the reckless Dauntless, this practice is common. I've never thought much of the scandal that was meaningless kissing in Abnegation; I never really had time to think about it.
It was so much more than simply the pressing of lips together.
Tobias is evidently skiled at this, manovering in ways that make me shiver internally head to toe. I try not to wonder how he's so experienced, but then again, he was never one for obeying rules.
Now he breaks all the rules, and it does strange, amazing things to me.
His hands glide over my hips without permission and I suddenly wish I wasn't so skinny, but he doesn't seem to care. He keeps kissing me, angling his head so we mold together better. A little sound of pleasure escapes me and I feel my cheeks burning, but Tobias's eyes are closed, as are mine, and I'm sure if he noticed he would have reacted. But no; he carries on, reckless.
Tobias pushes me back further against the door and I exhale suddenly, realising I had been holding my breath a little. My eyes flicker open and Tobias's dark blue irises are so close to mine; I can see the patch of ligher blue in his left one. His lips are curved ever so slightly in a smile that seemed both amused and pleased at the same time. I want more, so I run my hands up his chest and link them around his neck, as gracefully as I can, but I'm not very graceful at the best of times. I'm not very experienced at this, but again, he doesn't seem to mind. He starts the kissing again and time seems to dissolve until it has no meaning.
I'm just beginning to grasp the basics fo this new skill when suddenly there is a crash from downstairs. My instinct is to leap back, but Tobias is holding me steady, still pinned against the door. My chest is heaving a little and I feel flustered, but I don't left it show. What we just did has undone me from the inside out, but I have to hold my composure.
"We should probably go check if everything's alright," Tobias says, and my heart sinks. He makes no attempt to move, however. That is when I realise that this is a test. The Abnegation part of me screams 'go downstairs and help clean up!', while the selfish, reckless part of me just wants Tobias.
So I pull him to me again, hoping that this is the option he hoped I would choose, and kiss him fearlessly.
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Divergent: Before We Chose
Fiksi Penggemar"I realize that if we had both chosen differently, we might have ended up doing the same thing, in a safer place, in gray clothes instead of black ones." What if Tobias and Tris hadn't met each other in Dauntless? What if fate won over chance, and t...
