Entangled ✔️

chapter 30

He’d procrastinated to the point that he only had a few days left in India. He swore that he’d tell her tonight. She was his best friend, his confidante, and the one person he couldn’t wait to see every day, but he knew he couldn’t continue the friendship.

It would be too hard for him. The heavy knock on his door shook the troublesome thoughts from his mind. She stood there, fists shaking, shoulders hunched, in a stance that Adam had never seen from her. Ahana was pissed.

“What’s wrong?”

“Why did you do it?” she asked, shoving past him before plopping on the couch. Adam cautiously sat beside her.

“I’m at a disadvantage here. Why are you so angry?”

“Why the hell did you delete my responses?”

Adam froze, unsure of how to answer. He swallowed but found his mouth dry. “I don’t know—”

“Don’t lie. I know it was you. I called the dating service and told them I wanted to cancel. They tried to talk me out of it. Finally I told them I wasn’t receiving favorable responses. They looked up my account and said I’d received twenty-five.” She turned to Adam, crossing her arms and awaiting his answer.

Adam shook his head, at a loss for words. Her voice became soft, almost a whisper, and there was a new emotion in it that Adam couldn’t identify…hope? “I know it was you. You were the only one who had means and opportunity. What I want to know is…what was your motive?”

“Ahana, I told you it’s dangerous, and I was worried about you meeting strange men. You’re not experienced, and I didn’t like the idea.”

“Is that your only reason?”

Adam cleared his throat, looking away from her. “Yes, what other reason would there be?”

“Adam, I really need to know if that’s your only reason. I need you to be honest with me.”

Adam closed his eyes and asked the question that she always did. The one that stunted his ability to articulate and think. “Why?”

“I need to know because, if by chance, you’re feeling anything else, I might have similar feelings.” Her chest heaved, and she folded her arms across it as if holding back the emotion. It was a palpable mixture of anger, betrayal, and anticipation that Adam had never witnessed before. “Is it because you think you’re like your father? That you’re not deserving? You’re not. You’re a very good man, Adam. I—”

She stared at him with those soft, honey brown-colored eyes, and there was something in her expression that answered all his questions. It was an optimistic hope that he’d say the right thing, do the right thing. He had to kill it before it destroyed both of them, because Ahana was so much like his mother, and unfortunately, he was his father’s son.

He had to hurt her now, so he wouldn’t hurt her more later. He wanted her to hate him as he hated himself in that moment. “Ahana, don’t presume to know me. You know nothing about me. I care for you like someone might care for an injured dog.”

The tears started flowing down her cheeks. “ First, That was cruel and,  second that’s not true.”

“I’m a good actor. Isn’t that obvious?”

“Why are you being so cruel?” she demanded in a choked whisper.

“It was quid pro quo, Ahana. You gave me a Pulitzer-worthy lead, and I gave you some really good sex. Let’s call it even.”

“I don’t believe you. You know I would have given you the article no matter what. I never asked you for any of this.”

“You didn’t? Because you sure had your goals pretty set.”

“Adam, I—”

“I’m moving to New York. I got a job at the Times. I’ll be gone in a week,” he said, devoid of any emotion, making his voice sound even colder.

Ahana swallowed and stared at Adam. He kept his face a statue, willing himself to continue with his lie.
“Adam, don’t do this.”

“Don’t do what?”

“Don’t shut me out, please.”

Adam stood up and grabbed her arm. “Good-bye, Ahana Singh. I have to pack now.” He ushered her to the door. He shoved her outside.

“Adam, you’re my best friend!” Ahana hollered.

Adam gave her a sardonic smile in response. “Get yourself a vibrator, sweetheart. It can be your new best friend.” He slammed the door in her face.

He heard her deep cry pierce through the closed door. He leaned against it, battling not to open it and pull her into his arms. He felt the wetness on his face, and he shut his eyes tightly to keep the tears locked away. He hadn’t cried since that horrible birthday at the cottage when he’d vowed never to cry again.

"Adam my dear friend, Oh Sorry!  My ex-friend, I'm not gonna get myself a vibrator. I'm going to find a Man for myself, who is going to be man enough to take care of me, man enough to not to lie to me, man enough to not to run away from his feelings, and man enough to be my best friend. And one  more thing Mr. Adam Connor, I Hate you. I Hate you for not being a good friend. I Hate you for telling me all those lies. And... I Hate you for breaking my heart."Adam listened to Ahana's words,which she mumbled out barely ,as he could listen her softly weeping through the door. Then she collected herself and she walked away. Walked away from him. Adam deserved it.

He had been the worst kind of man to Ahana. Not even a man…a complete coward. He had to be. If she hated him, it would be easier for her. Although she had never said it, he had a feeling from her expression that she loved him too.

At least in this good-bye, she could be angry with him and come to the realization he wasn’t good enough for her. That was the least he could do for her. He knew he had hurt her badly ,but he also understood that this hurt was nothing in comparison to the hurt, he would give her if they decided to get together. He would kill her softly with time, like his father has killed his mom. After all, if you have a broken heart , you couldn't live longer even if you are the most powerful, most rich person. Ahana couldn't survive him, she was so soft, so kind that she would forgive him time and again to take him back ,and will hurt herself everytime. He didn't wanted that for her. She already had enough on her plate thanks to her fucked up family. He can't lead her to a slow death, and being with him exactly meant that . 

That was chapter 30 guys. hope y'all like it and enjoy reading it.

So Adam is going away and he was rude. Do y'all think this is gonna work for him?
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