May 17
12:49 AM
[ Mommy ]
Millie:
Hi, Mom!
You still up?
Mommy:
What's up, pretty? Yes?
Millie:
I just wanna talk 🙂
Mommy calling...
Millie declined
Millie:
Here, mommy
Mommy:
Oh okay so what's bothering you?
Millie:
I couldn't understand myself these past few months and I got okay naman then this month came, I'm back now where I feel so confused all of a sudden
Mommy:
Why?
Millie:
You know this Estrevillo, right?
Mommy:
I knew it
Your dad was ranting about the specific post of the ex girlfriend, is that it?
Tsk I thought it was Heilder, baby!
Millie:
Sadly nope
I don't wanna make everything a big deal but it's really bothering me these days
We've been hanging out for a week now and I know that we're catching up as friends only
Mommy:
Really? He's in Vegas?
Millie:
Yup, he went here to unwind
Mommy:
Okay go on
Millie:
I just feel insecure about myself liking this man who doesn't feel the same way, I'm so aware of it ever since
I'm aware that we're just friends and we cant be more than that, not that I'm expecting us to be
I'm reminding myself everyday
Everything is catching up as what I told before messaging him, I just wanted to be friends with them again. With him. That was my only reason, promise!
But I didn't expect it to be this hard and frustrating, I didn't expect I'd still like him after years
I mean I adored him at the young age but i can't believe that he could make me feel giddy til now by our simple exchanging messages and his presence 😪
It feels wrong coz I know he loves someone else and he just went through a break up.
I get annoyed everytime he's mentioning about her unintentionally as if it was just normal like example—that we have the same hobby, shopping and our favorite flower and color. 😭
I so hate the same facts
God!!! I'm so frustrated! Confused and insecure! Feels like every move I make reminds him of her
And when I saw his ex girlfriend celebrating with his whole family as if there's nothing really broken? I wanted to stop talking to him but upon realizing my place, I continued coz I don't wanna look bitter about it. It was my only choice as a friend
Mommy:
I wanna hug you right now
I could feel your frustration and it's hard for me to reach you this moment because we're miles away, goodness, Millaray...
I'll get back to you, I'll just go get a drink okay?
Millie:
Mommy sorry, please calm down
Mommy:
I'm fine
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Mommy:
I don't know what to say nor advice you bcoz even how much I give you words, I could never take all your ill feelings. I just want you to be happy and if that Heidden keeps hurting you, please avoid him now. Don't go further. You've been taking risks all your life, you didn't risk it all to be stuck into one place nor for anyone—it was all for you, remember what you wanted while fighting... you wanted to live and continue the life happily. Happiness never starts or comes from someone, it's all in your hand. Never settle in pain, walk away.
I love you, my Millie. Your Dad and I are always here.
Millie:
I love you and thank you, Mommy 😭
