"Distance Soulmates~"

"Laces"

My alarm clock screams to life, making a loud beeping sound trying to wake me up for the day that has to come. I shifted in my bed staring at the ceiling that I painted full of stars. I shifted and slammed my fists down hard onto my bed as I cried harder. why did he have to leave...Fireworks happened. Then...nothing left...Just gone. Left me alone with these open scars!

I jumped up and walked to my bathroom pulling my hood up, as my tears burned down my soft face leaving streaks. I picked up my old towels throwing them out. I looked up at my still broken mirror. My mother wasn't too happy that I broke it. So I had to buy a new one, but I haven't yet. 

"If you love someone...let them go...if they come back..there truly meant to be..."

I kept repeating myself over and over again as I cleaned up my bathroom, tears falling down my face as I thought of him. I wanted to scream and cry out to the world. 

I cried harder falling to the ground screaming out in pain feeling my body break down.

I slammed my fist against the wall hard over and over again making it bruise soon feeling my knuckles bleed. 

I slowly stood up shaking and changed grabbing my converse. I ran down the stairs quickly avoiding my siblings and I laced my shoes tightly and I bit my lip hard feeling my foot tighten up. 

"Where are you going...?"

"Don't worry Sis. I'll be back soon."

"How soon? We are gonna have Family over this evening!"

I froze and stared at her my face broken, she backed up going quiet. She knew I didn't wanna be home, I stood up and ran out there door. I didn't know where to go.

No, I shouldn't say that I do know where to go.

I needed to see him.

I ran down the streets shifting my hoodie on myself keeping myself hidden more.

Airport...here I come.

I waited in line shifting my ticket in my hand, I felt my bag start to fall off my shoulder. I quickly moved it as someone bumped into me glaring. Yeah, seeing a teenage goth trans kid alone in line for a plane is just normal. 

No, it's not normal at all. I shouldn't be alone but I am. 

As I started to board the plane I felt my phone buzz. i looked down and say that one of my friends had texted me asking where I was. I stared at it and just shut off my phone as tears fell down my face. 

I walked onto the plane sitting away from people getting a good seat. 

I shifted my bag and pulled out my sketchbook starting to sketch him out. I felt myself tear up more. It wasn't a long plane ride. It should only be around 2 hours. But...i couldn't stop myself from crying and just wanting to end everything in my life at that moment. 

I looked out the window as the plane started to go off, I gripped my hold on my chest as tears fell.

Laced tied. Tightly.

Seat belts, fastened. Tightly.

My heart.

Tied, tightly around him.

-Kyler Lynn

Until then.....