I couldn't get the dream I had out of my head.
I know I have lost him, and he is with someone else...But why is this red string still attached to him? Why does the tug in my heart hurt like hell?
WHY COULDN'T I HAVE HIM?!?!?!?!?!!?!?
I punched my wall hard as tears fell from my burning eyes. My knuckles turning a dark purple-black color. But no blood...
As I started at my wall, photos of him fell off my shelf landing in front of me. I stared at them as tears fall, I fucked up this huh?
I was afraid, and just a plain IDIOT!!!
"I love you, Darling, ~"
"I love you more Bby Boy!"
I kept hearing his voice, his words ringing in my ear. I didn't know where to go if I took another step am I gonna fall into these memories? Does that keep reminding me that I fucked everything up I had with him?!
I'm only human Cj!
Humans are not perfect, and I ain't perfect.
I'm only human...these knives in the heart.
You built me up then I fell apart ruining everything.
Why did I have to fall apart and ruin the thing I want!
"Forever and ever?"
"Of course Cj, forever and ever. Until I die. I will love you until death it's self."
"What about through marriage?"
"You're already talking about marriage at this age?"
"Well yeah! I wanna be with you forever like we said. Duh ima talk about marriage"
"Well, then what if I say yes?"
"You're saying yes to the proposal I didn't even plan or have a ring for it?"
"Cj, I don't need you to give me anything. I don't want gifts. I have memories and our love is the greatest love and gift to me in this whole world"
"Darlin, you're gonna make me cry with how amazing you are"
"I ain't as amazing as you are, it's crazy. I remember when we first meet. The hours and hours of video calling each other. You're the reason I kept fighting for so long"
how much longer must I keep hearing this?
WHAT DO I HAVE TO PROVE WORLD!?!
That I still love him...want him and all I can hear is the memories...
Our memories...
I love him...
-Kyler Lynn </3
I do still love him and always will.
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"Distance Soulmates~"
Teen FictionKyler, A young boy trapped in a female's body at birth. Was born without a soulmate. Until one message changed his life for the better... But Distance can cause problems. A love story between two people..that live far away from each other... Mayb...
