Heart Torment

19

Hey loves. Long time no see. So I'm off for summer now and hope to have finished this by the time I go back to school so I can start the last one. I don't know if I have used this song or not before, but if I have then listen to it again as I really like it. So the song is "Wrapped Around Your Finger" by 5 Seconds of Summer. I hope you enjoy it!! (:

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*Olivia's P.O.V*

"Thank you," I say as I walk out of the book store in the mall that had organized my book conference. They said they'll talk to my lawyer so tomorrow can go ahead. God damn I'm so happy they don't think I did anything wrong. Damn Jack... Why did I ever love him?

"Oh crap, where's April?" I panick before realizing she didn't come with me. She's at home with Matt as they're having a movie night, stupid.
I shuffle in my leggings and tight hoodie to the escalator. Am I really going to do this... again? Am I really going to do what caused this all and just...

"Liv, I need to talk to you." Jamie interrupts my thoughts as he is on the escalator which is going up. Damn you Dornan, I wanted some space before our deed was done. You're the one who told me to hang on and here you are approaching me. The bloody hypocrite! "It's good news!" Dornan expresses before he reaches the top and heads over to the stairs; sliding down on the hand rail. He's gonna kill himself one day.

"What's up?" I say casually as I lead us over to a bench to sit on. Tell him how you're dying inside and need to be on your own to curl up into a ball and die.
"I thought we agreed not to see each other until tomorrow. It can't go ahead right now as they've rearranged my book conference. After that maybe, we'll have to see." He nods instantly before grabbing my face in between his hands and kissing me harder than ever before. Damn... No! You're to marry Matt and he still has Amelia! It feels so good though...

"What the...? You can't just go around doing that. I'm just going in circles with you..." I shake away before he pulls me back to hush me.

"Shh, baby. Look... Once we've done this tomorrow it's going to be us against the world. Don't you want that?" Oh gees. He bloody well knows I do as I'm not a very good person at resisting well, him. But I'm to marry Matt... Pull yourself together Smith! But you don't love Matt!

"But Amelia... You still love her...?" He's messing with your head, Smith.

"I left her. She was being vile about you for no reason, and was gonna kick you out of your own home and bann you from seeing Dulcie. Also, a while ago she slept with Jack. I'm not sure if you knew, but hey." He pushes a piece of hair behind my ear and smiles gently. "I want you... I've always wanted you. I truly have." He concludes. Wow I knew she was a bit well... Bitchy? But that's a new low, even for her. I get that I slept with her hus...ex husband, but is chucking me out onto the streets really the appropriate way to behave?

"You know I want you. I've told you that so many times. But you denied my fact. You just slept with me. How do I know I'm not just your rebound?" I sigh. James sighs in return before grabbing the watch he got me for my birthday.

"Because you'll always be my Liv. You always have been and you always will be. I've always had some kind of special feeling for you, I just never knew what it was. I will love you more than anyone has ever loved you."

"I love you too, but what about Matt? I can't just leave him again. And my poor daughter. No mother can abandon her child for the first time, let alone a second time. She's just become customed to me being in her life again.." I close my eyes and stand up, then gesturing my arms about.
"Then you have the press. The bloody press who will sabotage your life because you left Amelia for some twenty-nine year old alcoholic who left her daughter." I sigh and he stands up to cup my face again.

"Forget about me or the press or Matt. Forget about everyone else, even April. If she or Matt truly loves you, they'll respect your choice. What do you want?" He says causing my mind to stutter with concentration and my body to shiver as I'm going to end up hurting one person at least... Right?

"I want what I told you in the police station yesterday." I breathe heavily and a smile forms across his ever so soft lips. He still likes the plan, result!

"I thought you would. Now it's up to you what we do about April. She's your daughter at the end of the day and I want what's best for the both of you. So you go and think about it and then come to me ready after the conference and we'll do it. I promise you it'll all be okay. Don't drink as this is your sweet escape. Just you and I against the world, my loved one. We can and will do this." He then kisses me for a final time, causing me to melt into his sweet taste of Ale and Jamie.

"Okay. I believe you. No drinking as it'll be worth it." Yeah so worth it, I think. "It'll be okay. We'll be okay, and so will everything else. I love you also." I kiss his forehead as I walk away from him for the final time before our lives change forever due to me and my stupid plan.