Kaash Hum Mohabbat Se Anjan Hote!- TWINJ

Chapter 11

"Sanchi!!!"... I screamed my lung out. What was that? What I just read? Leela aunty is no more? Sanchi died? No this can't be true, she can't die. Aunty can't die. They can't leave me like this, alone nd guilty. After my Mom they were my strength, how can they think I wouldn't be able to face the truth. Am I that bad that everyone leave me just for the sake of my happiness? What's the need for that?

I never knew that the truth is so horrific, which will shakes my soul too. After reading about Sanchi's death too, her diary slipped from my hands nd I fell on my knees just thinking that what I did in my madness. The lady who always care for me, for my happiness I disrespected her upbringing, her values? I didn't even tried to know that what she was going through? A girl who gives me importance more than her own sister, who considered me her big brother, who loved me selflessly, who always cares for me I called her Gold digger? I insulted her feelings her emotions, I hurt her to such an extent that she had to lose her life? Nd my love, who sacrifice everything just for me, who did everything just to end the distance between me nd Dad, I snatched her family? She loved me unconditionally nd more than I loved her but what I did to her? What I called her, Characterless? I abused her love? Why? I shouted at me being angry.

What should I say now? How should I react after knowing that I'm the reason of her ruination? What should be my reaction after knowing that she lost her mother, her sister bcz of me? What should be my reaction on the fact that I Killed her Family? I broke my promises, I've promised her that I'll never be the reason of her tears but look what I did, I only made her life hell. I snatched her happiness nd gave her just pain. I hate myself now. I hate myself I've ever hated anyone else. She had trust on me, she took such big decision with the hope that I'll understand her, I'll trust her but what I did? Instead of believing her, my Love I believed on that bloody Alisha. I knew that Dad has problems with my choices nd everything I do myself then why the hell I believed him that whatever he said against Twinkle, is true? Why God, why I couldn't understand that he'll never care for me, for my happiness?

I was broken down, I was shattered bcz of the thought that my own Dad is the reason of my ruination. Which Dad do this to his own child? He played with me. He took advantage of my emotions nd Twinkle's helplessness. My Dad destroyed my life, he snatched my happiness, my love from me nd I let him do. He lied to me, he tricked me badly. Though I knew that he'll never support my choices, my dreams nd happiness chosen by me but I've never imagine that he'll fall so low just for his benefits.

"I always listened you, you never care about me Dad but still I never had any hard feelings for you, I still loved you, I always gave respect to you, made you my first priority. I always tried to fulfill your dreams, fulfill the duty of a son. I always tried to make you happy, maine kabhi bhi aisa koi kaam nahi kiya jisse apka sir jhuke ya embarrass hona pade but apne kya kiya Dad? For the first time I gave importance to my choice, for the first time I wanted to make my dream come true, apni khushi ke bare me socha but you couldn't even tolerate it, you snatched it too from me? You snatched my love from me? Today, I'm feeling ashamed to call you my Dad. Mere dil me apke liye jo pyar, jo respect thi apne use kho diya Dad. You lost that place in my heart"... I said while remembering the past. I picked Twinkle's diary again to read further. I couldn't digest that Sanchi is no more. I wanted to read further, I wanted to know what happened next but I was disappointed bcz I was on the last page nd when I flipped it there was just written one line

"I forgot my diary in Mumbai nd brought old one with me in Jaipur by mistake"... I was too much depressed, I wanted to know more, I wanted to know that what else happened bcz of Me. I just hugged her diary to my chest while crying

"I'm sorry Sanchi, I know there is no forgiveness for what I've done to you but still I wanna apologies. Sanchi I know maine bahot galat kiya hai, I'm really very bad I couldn't see the innocence in your eyes. You tried to explain me but I misunderstood you. I said worst about you, I insulted your love. I'm sorry Sanchi, please bas ek baar hi sahi but please say that you've not gone anywhere, you'll meet me. You'll punish me, fight with me. I'm very guilty, mujhe samajh nahi aa raha hai ki main kya karun kaise sab sahi karun. I'm sorry Sanchi"... her memories was flashing in my mind. Her naughtiness, her smile, her face nd her being with me everything played in my mind.