Valerie

Fifteen

This chapter is dedicated to Timilehin06 shallyxo __janesse evelynook Z_hara. Those i didn't mention, I'm sorry if I left you out but I thank you all.

Playlist: Treat you better by Shawn Mendes

Valerie's POV
Shane was really helpful and I didn't really know how to express my appreciation so i said thanks and then he pulled out the one word that I never thought anyone would say to me.

"F-friend" I ask trying to be sure of what I heard.

"Why not" he says with a deep smile
"Of course, friends help each other out" he says

I feel a bit jittery in my tummy and I want to explore the feelings. My subconscious within me was smiling but on the outside, I was still emotionless

It feels so new to me and I must say, I feel somewhat comfortable in my own skin with this foreign feeling

"Valerie" I see a hand waving in front of my face trying to call my attention. I realized I zoned out

"Guess you're used to zoning out" he says with a light chuckle

"So what do you say, are you my friend?" He puts his hand before me and I feel the urge to speak but my lips don't comply.

I nod instead and we shake hands. I feel weirdly comfortable having human contact. I wondered what friends do and how they behave

"So Val, if you're done dwelling in your thoughts, can I help you study literature"

I nod and he teaches me some of the literary themes and plots and I understand them perfectly now.
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I'm through with a year worth of literature and it's about time I head home

"Uhmm...I just wanted to say I'm heading home now and thanks for the explanation" I hope within myself that the words came out right

"Sure, but like I said, don't mention" he gives a sincere smile

I notice that something seems off about him. The first time I met him, he seemed more cheerful but today, he looks a little off, I can't help but ask.

"Are you okay?" I ask trying not to break the words
"Well, yes and no. Yes because I've made a new friend and no because my mum's memorial is pretty soon"
A sad smile plays across his face but I see passed that smile.

Memorial, that means she's... Ohh

"Sorry for your lost, she's watching over you from up there" I say remembering what the nurse told me 10 years ago

"Thanks, it's sad you know. But I have to remember that she won't want to see me sad and broken" he smiles

"Right" i say and he escorts me to the roadside and there is comfortable silence.

As we reach the road, I give a speedy wave not waiting for his reaction and walk off like I've seen a ghost but It's because I don't know what to say. But I feel akward at the way that I left.
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I'm now sitting on my bed and I replay today's events in my head, I can't believe that I have a friend. I don't know how to feel or behave but I feel relaxed.

Today is different from every other day. I actually feel so lighter and I don't know exactly how to react to it.

There is something he said that keeps replaying
But I have to remember that she won't want to see me sad and broken

What if Chinedu is angry with me because I'm broken inside and constantly sad. He's always wanted to see me smiling and cheerful but I'm the opposite.

Seeing me like this would have brought a frown to his face if he were alive.

It feels as though Shane has also experienced my pain

But I wonder how he manages to be so cheerful like he's looked passed the pain and embraced his present. I would like to be that way if only I could let go.

I've been so he'll bent on building a wall that I've never looked at trying to let go.

If I can be that way then, I won't need my happy place when I go to university....

I want to be open and make Chinedu proud too...

Here's the double update as promised, like I said before, please forgive me

What do you think is in store for Valerie?

And she will soon start her examinations, will she be able to let go of her past

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