Valerie

Twenty One

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Pardon my long authors note...

Valerie's POV
As memories of me and chinedu flooded my mind. My eyes couldn't help but betray me and I start crying uncontrollably, I feel hot and my head begins to ache badly.

I put my hands on my head and close my eyes hoping that the memory of the accident will go away....
I feel warmth as two masculine hands wrap around my body and I look up to see Shane

"I know how hard it must be for you Val, but just know that I'm here to help you in any way I can but you just have to have Faith in me "

I gently take away his hands and sniffle on my hoodie.

"Have faith you say... I can't even trust my self then how can I trust you!!!... I have no idea how to believe anyone, I have my doubts about everyone then how the hell do you want me to trust you!!!"

I cover my face with my hood ignoring his hurt expression and I regret raising my voice at him. It's not like it's his fault that I'm like this but... I don't know how to put my faith on anyone.

I take my hood up and look at him, he's now facing side view but i can clearly see a frown on his face and I can't help but feel bad. I tap his hand and he looks at me with sad eyes.

"I'm... I'm sorry, I just felt attacked and I don't know how to react to this type of situations". I say trying to avoid eye contact

"Huh, don't be sorry Val, I know it's hard and I'm not saying you should fully trust me, at least give me the benefit of doubt to help you... I can see that you don't want to tell me and it's fine but it's the only way that I can help you" he looks down

"I'm here for you when you need me tho...
I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable, no hard feelings" he says and stands up

"Let me give you time to clear your head"

Wait... Is he leaving

He adjusts the camera on his neck and turns to me

"Bye dear, sorry for making you feel this way' he gives me a small smile.

I want his company right now but he's right, I don't think I'm ready to open up yet, but the question is will I ever be?

I watch him as he walks away not before he sends an instant wave my way.

This wasn't how I thought today would go. I thought I'll go home feeling more relieved but I feel like I just made a big mistake.

The day is still bright and I'm not planning on going home anytime soon looking like an emotional mess.

I pull off my shoes and step closer to the water while closing my eyes. It's one of the things that calms me.

I feel the water caress my skin and I love the way that the beachy like sand feels under my feet. The wind is so comfortable and my face feels cracked due to my dried up tears.

My head begins to ache more and I put my knees to the ground and wash my face with the water.

I stretch my hand to my bag and I'm relieved as I see the back up paracetamol that I keep in my bag for emergencies, I take a gulp of water from my water bottle and throw the tablet into my mouth.

I lay on the mat to ease the pain I feel in my head and take deep breaths. I wish none of this happened.

How could I cry in front of him?
But he told me about his past?
Why couldn't I tell him?
Why is he so understanding?

These questions go through my mind and I can't help but feel confused and worried, I need to get some rest if not I might have a breakdown...

I'm sorry chinedu, I couldn't do it

I allow the tears to roll down freely

I'm sorry for the short chapter tho.

I hope you enjoyed it

I feel gloomy writing this chapter

I wish she just told Shane although it must be really hard for her.

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