What happened in Beihone [ under revision ]

10 - heartaches

JELLY

We stare into each others eyes, indulge into the moment. It's as if the heaviness of the weight I have been holding has lifted and it's because of the girl right in front of me. Butter is smiling from ear to ear and I can't contain my happiness as well.

We ended kissing each other once again, her lips against mine. How soft it feels and how good it taste, It makes me want to remember this moment over and over again. Natigil lang siguro kami ni Butter nang bigla kaming may marinig na pumapalakpak sa likod namin.

"Very good my little sister, really? After everything Jelly?" Nakatingin sa amin si Jillian, naglakad siya papalapit sa amin. She's trying her best to hold her tears back by looking up. Those tears still started to fall, and I am the reason why she'a crying right now.

"Jill, it's not what you think." I said, she only shake her head in disbelief because of this.

"Jill, I wasn't expecting for you to be here. I don't know how to explain this." Butter chuckles at huminga siya ng malalim, lumapit siya kay ate. "Jill, Jelly and I are together." Nakahawak rin si Butter sa kaliwang pulso ni Jillia pero mabilis niya itong winakli.

"Together? How can you be so numb! I was the one here for you all the time, Mahal kita and you're too stupid to know that at sa lahat lahat si Jelly pa talaga? This is absurd!" Tumataas na ang boses ni ate, nagulat naman si Butter sa nalaman nito pero ako ay nanatiling tahimik. Hindi alam kung ano ba ang susunod kong sasabihin.

"I'm sorry Jillian, hindi ko alam. It's Jelly, she's the one I love." After Butter said that, napatingin lang siya sa kawalan. My sister only sob in agony over this, at sobra akong nasasaktan habang naririnig ito.

How bad and complicated could love get, when it's between two people that's important to you.

"I know, I fucking know! Nakita ko palang kayo nag hahalikan! That's clear to me! Ikaw Jelly, masaya kana ba? Finally she's yours, dahil sa paglalayo mo sa kanya sa akin, you think hindi ko napapansin yon?" Dinuduro ako ni Jillian at nanatili lang akong nakatingin sa baba.

Lumapit naman si Butter kay Jillian at hinawakan ang kamay nito.

"Teka Jill, walang kasalanan si Je — "

"Enough." Iniwakli ni Jillian ang kamay ni Butter at tumingin sa aming dalawa while tears burned her eyes and her lower lip trembled.

"Jillian please listen to me." I call her attention pero umiling lamang ito at naglakad na paalis, pinagmasdan ko lamang ang papalayo na pigura nito.

Napaupo ako at napahawak sa may ulo ko banda, sobrang naguguluhan at nasasaktan sa mga nangyayari. I can't be happy while Jillian is experiencing the pain, she was there for me all the time in my life and Butter? I don't know hindi ko na alam.

Butter curled up and held my hand, sinalubong ko ang mga tingin niya. Yinakap niya ako, pero kumalas kaagad ako at tumayo, and she did the same.

"I'm sorry Jelly, kasalanan ko to. I'm sorry." Butter said and her eyes were filled with tears. Ang gulo, nasasaktan ko na silang lahat.