What happened in Beihone [ under revision ]

Chapter 11 - Separate ways

Butter and Jelly -- Chapter 11: I'm with somebody now

Butter

It has been 5 months since the last time I saw Jelly, the scars and all the pain, nandito lahat ng yun hindi ko makakalimutan ang mga araw na magkasama kami, magkahawak kamay habang pinapanuod ang paglubog ng araw.

Dati rati nakakulong pa ako sa mga bisig niya pero it will all stay as memories now, memories that will always be important to me.

As usual andito nanaman ako sa Meldwin's Café chilling and writing a letter to her, ewan ko ba I'm writing a letter pero hindi ko naman pinapadala sa kanya. I wrote to her 152 letters to be exact and today pang 153 na and I still don't know how to start.

"Butter"

To see her again parang nawala lahat ng stress ko. That beautiful face that's marks how I fell in love with this Angel.

"You can be the peanut Butter to my Jelly." I sang in a low voice at narinig naman niya and she giggled. But I look at her in a cold way just to remind her what she did to me.

"I know marami akong kasalanan sayo, but I just wanna say goodbye please take care of Jilliand and for now goodbye muna." I was in total shock when she said that diba ako yung nasaktan so ako dapat ang aalis diba?

"How about Louise?" Akala ko ba sobra niyang gusto si Louise bakit niya naman iiwan ito.

"We broke up hindi naman talaga kami Butter it was just, nagpanggap lang kami." At mas lalo naman akong nagulat sa sinabi niya. "I really wanna tell you something bago ako umalis Butter." She add up.

"Ano naman yun?"

"Lahat ng sinabi ko sayo sa parking lot, it wasn't real and yung sa rooftop yun yung totoo. And I'm sorry kung hindi ko pa kaya ngayon pero someday baka kaya ko na." Alam kong naluluha na siya pero pinipigilan lang niya.

Hinalikan niya ako sa pisngi at wala akong ibang ginawa kundi damhin ito because for the last time, mahal ko at mamahalin ko si Jelly Ayumi Jung.

That was the last time na nakita ko siya before she move to another university, she started her own modeling career and eventually sumikat naman siya ng sobra lalo na sa girls. Nakikita ko siya sa lahat ng magazines and I couldn't help myself from buying it pero syempre patago pa rin kasi may girlfriend na ako.

153rd letter to you my love.

Jelly,

If you ever had the chance to read this, I would like to say that I love you and I will cherish you every moment of my life.

We never had the chance to be together and I regretted it, ikaw rin ba?

Anong nangyari? Bakit ka umalis? Instead of fighting up for me. Pinamigay mo pa ako sa ate mo?

I don't understand, hindig hinding ko maiintindihan kasi ako I'm willing to give up everything for you but you weren't so I guess this is goodbye. This letter shall be the witness of my love for you that never dies.

But as what they say lahat may ending, minsan masaya, minsan malungkot at minsan tama tama lang. Pero I'm on the sad part. I'm letting you go now.

Butter

I guess it's really time to let go of you Butter, My 153rd letter that serves the last letter na isusulat ko sayo. Wala na akong balita kay Jelly ni anino nito hindi ko manlang mahagilap syempre sa sobrang sikat niya, she's desired and adored by many. Hindi naman pwede na makisiksik ako. I guess, magiging isang magandang alaala lang siya sa isip ko.

Umalis na ako dito sa café at tinanggal ang lock ng bicycle ko at sumakay na dito.

Mabuti nalang at nakabili ako ng murang bisikleta atsaka mas mabuti na rin ang part time job ko ngayon mas malaki ang sweldo, syempre I was recommended by Jillian. For all these months siya lang naman ang palaging nandyan para sa akin she never left my side kahit ipanagtutulakan ko na siya palayo.

And without her nasa mental na siguro ako ngayon.

Pagkauwi ko ay may napansin akong maliit na box na nakasabit sa harapan ng gate ko, siguro galing nanaman to kay Jillian pero ang pinagtataka ko sa tuwing magpapadala si Jillian may delivery boy at may pinapapaperma sa akin.

Hindi ko nalang to pinansin at pumasok na sa bahay, napaupo ako sa couch and I turned on the electricfan. Sobrang init talalaga dito sa pinas kaya bawal mag heavy makeup mapapanis talaga agad.

I opened my phone and check may fb wala pa rin namang bago, I visited the timeline of Jelly and there she is. 1 million followers, adored by so many people and same rin naman sa twitter account niya. I viewed her latest pics and palagi na siyang nasa iba't ibang bansa.

This is her dream, I'm glad natupad na niya.

Oo nga pala I forgot the check the box and ang laman nito. I slowly opened the box and saw a note on top of it, mabilis ko naman itong binasa.

My butt at this moment nababasa mo na to, I just wanna tell you that 152 days have passed but my love for will never fade. The moment na mag 18 ka, kukunin na kita ulit sa kanya. Because you are mine."

Shit this letter is so ew, who calls someone her butt?

Okay there was a gold necklace and it was a heart shape, halatang bagong bili palang. Malamang sino naman ang magbibigay ng luma? I scanned the box pero wala na itong laman. Is this for me? But Jillian never called me My Butt pero it seems so familiar.

I brush it off at humiga nalang sa couch, I was scanning Jelly's profile baka naman may makita akong bago.

Refresh

Jelly Jung

Getting married at 22.

What the actual fuck? Lahat ng brain cells ko napasigaw ng shit, at umulan ng mura sa isip ko hanggang umabot sa puso ko.

Kanino siya ikakasal? Boyfriend? Girlfriend? Kanino? Damn it nababaliw nanamn ako kakaisip. Magpapaksal na siya ngayon? Nababaliw na ba siya? She's too young for that.

Teka bakit ba ako ganito magreact? Hindi naman niya ako girlfriend and It doesn't matter if she's getting married it's her choice. Nakakairita naman talaga.

Tinapon ko ang cellphone ko sa sobrang inis, makatulog na nga lang muna mamamaya nalang ako mag gogrocery.

Bakit ba sobrang apektado pa rin ako?

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