Between The Two of Us

Chapter 35

Chapter 35

Mainit na sikat ng araw ang sumalubong sa akin pagdating ko sa Casa Feliciano. I smiled at the woman who attended me. The fresh air made me feel at ease somehow.

Dere-deretso ang lakad ko papasok sa resort habang may nakasunod sa akin na tumutulong sa gamit ko. Hindi naman gaanong madami ang bibit ko but maybe, that's the kind of service that they have. I mouthed my thank you when I entered my suite.

Isang malakas na buntong hininga ang pinakawalan ko matapos kong hawiin ang kurtina. From here, I can see the vast ocean. Amoy ang alat mula sa dagat at ang hangin ay nakakatulong para mabawasan ang bigat sa aking dibdib.

A week ago, I asked for a vacation leave. Mabilis naman akong pinayagan dahil tapos ko na lahat ng pinapagawa sa akin at hindi naman abala ang kumpanya. I just realized that I need a getaway. I need an escape from that city. Everything that's happening there is just suffocating me.

After Kate beg me to help her, I don't really know what to do. She cried at me all night and I also cried together with her. Ang sakit lang kasi, yung akala mo na ayos na, hindi pa pala. I am so selfish that I forgot how can I hurt someone because I am minding my own feelings. I forgot how can I affect others just because I thought, everything is fine. When in fact, all of it just fucked up.

Sa loob ng isang linggong paghihintay ng leave ay hindi ako nakipagkita kay Tyrell. I asked myself first, why am I doing this. Why am I avoiding him. Because technically, there's no 'us'. Pero sa tuwing naiisip ko si Kate, at ang nakaraan namin ni Tyrell, parang sapat na dahilan na yun para umiwas.

My sister likes him. And Tyrell, never said that he still loves me. It's been years since we last met, we've been good friends before, so I shouldn't hope too high just because he's always asking me out. Alam ko naman na sobrang bait nya lang. That maybe, he's just doing it to be friends with me again, and it's also not as if we never shared good times with each other.

Pinupuntahan nya ako sa office pero nag-oovertime ako kahit walang ginagawa. Kapag hinihintay nya naman ay nagpapanggap ako na masama ang pakiramdam. Kate is pursuing her though. Halos araw araw ata sya sa ospital para kay Tyrell. She just don't know how to gave up.

And I think that's the kind of girl that he deserves. Someone who will fight for him. Unlike me, because for the second time, I chose to gave him up.

"You sure you're okay there?" si Isaac, noong gabi habang nag-didinner ako sa restaurant.

The breeze of night air in Batanes is really refreshing. Ngumiti ako kahit hindi naman ako kita ni Isaac.

"I am." I said though I doubt if he will believe it.

The same night, when Kate cried on me, I called him. Isaac has been really a good friend to me. Sa kanya ko lang talaga nagagawa na sabihin kahit yung mga bagay na hindi ko maamin sa sarili ko. Pinagalitan nya ako ng malaman nya yung pasimpleng paglabas namin ni Tyrell. Kahit na sinabi ko na wala lang yun, alam nya na hindi ganun kadali yun. He even told me that maybe for Tyrell, it's just nothing but for me, I am already hurting. At mas lalo lang syang nainis matapos malaman yung nangyari kay Kate.

He wants the best for me, pero tanga ang turing nya sa akin kaya hinayaan ko na. Si Isaac lang ang sinabihan ko na nandito ako. I immediately turned off my phone when I got here. Ngayon ko lang ulit binuksan para sa kaibigan. Kanina noong bago sya tumawag, may mga tawag at text na pumasok pero hindi ako nag-abala na buksan yun.

Kate asked for my help. And I am helping her from getting away. She's persistent, she's pretty, and brave. A week without me in the picture wouldn't be hard for her to get Tyrell's attention. This is my way of helping her and myself. To get away from the same man who makes our hearts beat.