Summer made us

Chapter 22

Lily's POV

When I woke up it was past 12pm and I was still in the clothes I used to jog. I got up from bed and went to the bathroom. I took off my clothes and turned on the shower. I stood under it for I don't know how long before stepping out.

I didn't feel like myself and it bothered me. Why was I moping  around? Why did I feel like complete shit after seeing Nichole? I didn't know the answer all to this questions and it made me really upset.

I put on black shorts and yellow tank top. I didn't even bother packing my hair. I just let it fall freely down my back. I needed a hair cut.

What I remember was lying down on the bed and looking up at the ceiling, when I slept I didn't know. I was also very hungry cos I haven't eaten anything since yesterday.

I walk out of my room and head to the kitchen. Mason was in the living room reading a book and grandma was no where to be seen.

"Hey Mase. " I said ruffling his hair.

"Lils I'm not a child don't ruffle my hair like that. " he said glaring at me and I laughed.

"Where's grandma? "

"She went over to Coles house. " he said and my heart clenched at the mention of his name. While I was thinking earlier I made up my mind to ignore him because I didn't want to be caught up in all this drama.

"Oh and there's food for you in the fridge. " he said and went back to reading.

I walked into the kitchen and opened the fridge. Grandma left fried rice for me. My mouth watered at the sight of the food. I should try cooking sometime its been a while.

I microwave the rice and put it in a plate. I sit down and start eating. Even food couldn't calm me down. I was feeling very edgy. I don't know how I'm gonna ignore him because I'll probably see him almost all the time.

I finished eating and I cleaned up.I picked up the book I left on one of the shelves and went out the back door. I think reading would get my mind off everything bothering me.

I went to the tree and sat under it and started reading. I was very engrossed in the book because Tessa just found her dad dead in Harrys and her apartment.

I kept reading while listening to SEND THEM OFF by Bastille when someone tapped me on the shoulder. I looked up to find the person I said I wanted to ignore staring down at me. He smiled at me but I frowned back.

I stood up and brushed past him, he was the last person I wanted to talk to right now but I didn't go far because he held me still by the waist.

"Let me go! " I shouted at him.

"Why Lily? Why are you trying to ignore me? " he asked.

"Because I don't wanna talk to you. Now let me go! "

"What did I do this time Lily? "

"You lied to me Cole. You told me she wasn't your girlfriend but she told me today that I should stay away from you because you belong to her and I don't even know why I'm bothered about all this because I have no feelings for you and this thing between us is only a fling. " I looked at him and there was this unknown emotion in his eyes before his face held no emotions at all. If looks could kill I'll probably be dead by now because he was staring at me with too much intensity.

"So that's why you're ignoring me? Because of something Nichole said. " I didn't look at him, my eyes were focused on the ground.

"Did you stop to think if she was lying? Do you just believe anything and everything someone tells you? " he said to me and my cheeks heated up not out of embarrassment but out of anger.

"You see you just said it yourself. I shouldn't just believe anything anyone tells me. So I shouldn't believe you either. " I said to him and turned my back on him, he still didn't let me walk far, he turned me around and pulled me to his chest.

"You're right this thing between us is just a fling. So you shouldn't be bothered by other girls because this shit between us is just for sexual desires. " he said to me and crashed his lips on mine. This time his kiss was different, this one was rough and hard, he was expressing his anger in this kiss and it made me want to cry.

A single tear escaped from my eyes and I pushed him away from me and slapped him hard. He looked shocked for a second before his face morphed into one of anger. I cleaned the tears that fell from eyes.

"Don't you ever touch me Cole. You disgust the hell out of me!! " I shouted at him and my tears kept falling.

I think he calmed down because he didn't look angry anymore, he looked guilty.

"Lils I'm so....... "

"Don't. Just don't Cole. I don't wanna hear it. " I said cutting him off.

He wanted to touch me but I moved back wards. "I think its best you leave." I said turning my back on him.

I didn't hear him say anything again but his retreating steps. I turned around and he had already left.

I broke down. Why was I crying? Isn't he right though. Whatever is going on between us is just a fling and nothing more so why am i bothered about who his been with or who his still having flings with. It shouldn't affect me this much but it does.

I was sitting under the tree, crying my eyes out. I was frigging crying and I didn't know why. I wiped my tears and stared at the blank space in front of me.

I really don't why I was feeling like this because I have no feelings whatsoever for Cole.

Keep saying that Lily, your heart knows better.

My subconscious said and I just ignored it.

All I want to do now is go back home.

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Cole's POV

After what just happened between me and Lily I didn't go home. I was on my motorcycle driving to the only place I'll find comfort.

I stopped the motorcycle at the end of the forest part way and walked to the edge of the cliff. I sat down there and stared into the water.

I regret a lot of things right now. I regret ever letting Nichole come here, I regret making Lily cry because of the way I kissed her.

I had a lot of problems already and now Lily is part of them. I have to make her listen to me.

I pulled out the pack of cigarettes from my pocket and the lighter. I lit the stick and smoked it.

My dad is probably finding ways for me to do his will. I'm not on speaking terms with my mom and I had a lot to tell her. I don't know what is wrong with Nichole but she's more of a psychopath now and Lily......

Lily is angry with me and she wouldn't even listen to me. But what she said got to me, she didn't have any feelings for me and I didn't have any for her and this thing between us is just a fucking fling.

A fucking fling Cole so get your shit together.

In a twisted way you want her to at least like you.

My subconscious said and I just ignored it.

I smoked the entire pack of cigarettes and my throat was really hoarse. I should have brought a drink or even water but I didn't let it bother me.

I just sat there thinking about everything going on in my fucked up life while staring into the water.