Summer made us

Chapter 12

Lily's POV
So after Mason and I where back from the movies, it was already 9:00pm.

As I was about to go in after Mason had entered into the house, I saw him.

The blue eyed guy I have been thinking about a lot. The guy who has been on both my conscious and subconscious mind.

In other words the guy I have been thinking about during the day and dreaming about in the night. Although, I wouldn't really call it a dream.

Just my mind reminding me of how beautiful he is since I haven't seen him in a while

Though the dreams don't do his face justice because as I stare at him now I am awestruck by how he gets more beautiful every single fucking time I see him.

Its like how chocolate ice cream is to me. Every single time I taste it, it just taste better and better.

Cole is the guy for all of you who haven't figured that out already. I really don't know how I went from hating him to comparing him to chocolate ice cream.

I never once compared a guy to chocolate. Not once. And if you get to know me, you would know how precious chocolate ice cream is to me.

He was on his motorcycle. He got up and took his helmet off. I was still standing at the door. My feet couldn't move.

What the hell are you doing Lily. He's staring now and he's probably wondering why the hell you are staring at him like he's meat or something.

My subconsciousness reminds me. Damn how long have I been staring?  He had finally caught me and he's left eyebrow was raised.

He looked really pissed off though like something has been bothering him. He just stared back with a poker face before going inside Olivia's house without saying anything. 

He's reaction to me staring at him finally reminded me of how I was mad at him. What a jerk! He couldn't even say hi not to talk about apologizing for disappearing on me.

I walk inside and slam the door I slide down the back of the door and now I'm on the floor. I'm such a fool.

That is a fact. Why the hell would you just stare at him like that? And what do u think you are doing on the floor?

My subconsciousness mocks. Although she was right. What was I doing on the floor, who cared about what he thought.

I could just play it off when I see him again like I didn't just stare at him for no reason. That shouldn't be so hard right? Pretty simple, right?

"Sugar? Is that you? " Grandma asks as she enters into the living room. "Yes Grandma". "I made dinner". "I think I'll pass tonight".

I say as I head upstairs to my room. That was a disaster and I can't stop thinking about it. I just froze when I saw him and I don't understand why.

I should have looked away when he caught me but I didn't I just continued staring like an idiot. Arrrgh!

I needed to talk to someone about this. I know I told Tasha I wasn't ready to before but she told me I could whenever I was ready and I guess I was ready now.

I pick up my phone and I call Tasha. "Hey Lils". "Hey Tash, you remember that guy I didn't want to talk about? Well I want to talk about it now".

"Yes! Yes! Yes! Spill please". Tasha says.  I chuckle at how excited she is to hear about Cole.

"Well it started around June when we arrived. I found this really cool spot under a tree where I go to chill and read. So one day I was reading and I heard a noise.

I followed it and it led me to Cole on his motorcycle. That was the first time I saw him. He's really cute and all though. Like really really handsome.

The next time was at grandma's house where we had a fight about him wanting to take Mason on his motorcycle.

There's just something about him though. I hate his guts and all but my mind keeps drifting towards him.

There was a time grandma left me stranded at a supermarket and I didn't
have a ride home, he offered to take me even though I was rude to him.

There was also the time after dinner at my house he offered to do the dishes with me. So I kind of bit my lips and he told me not to or next time he would kiss me.

And there was the time when he jumped from my window into my room.

I also unconsciously bit my lip he was really close and then he said he wouldn't be able to stop himself next time I did it. Do you know he actually slept in my room that night?

Although not on my bed but just the couch. But in the morning he just left without saying shit and I'm still angry about that.

But the terrifying and embarrassing part is how I saw him tonight and I just froze.

He caught me staring. It was so embarrassing I wanted the ground to swallow me, and that is all that you have missed".

"Wait all this has been happening and you didn't bother to say shit since? " Tasha exclaimed.

"Well technically, you we're the one who asked me to talk when I was ready? "

"You idiot! You should have been ready when he asked you not to bite your lips. I'm sure he found you really sexy". I could imagine how she would  wiggle her eyebrows if we were together.

I chuckle as I reply her. "He probably thinks anything in skirt is sexy, Did I mention how I saw him with his tongue down a strawberry blonde model looking chick's throat? He's a dick! and I could care less if he found me sexy".

"Oh Lils you are so into him". "Honestly maybe I am but he's not the type of guy who is worth all the stress.

Anyways after the summer break, I'd probably never see him again so even if he was a prince charming or something it would never work out".

"Oh Lily.... So what about Michael back home? Your ex Or has Cole made you completely forget about him? "

"I.... I really haven't even thought about him all summer to be honest and before you say its because of Cole, it is not. I actually got over him before I met Cole."

" Well back to what happened today. That was a total disaster just hide away from him for the rest of your life". "Thanks I really feel better now."

"You and sarcasm though.... Ok  then, I gotta go my mum keeps yelling my name. Byeeee Lils".

"Bye babe, thanks for listening ". "Sure". She says as she cuts the call.
I don't even know what I achieved by calling her.

She just made me feel worse, because when Tasha Jacobs says something is a total disaster you have to know you have really messed up. I just have to hide away from him for the rest of my life.....