17th Floor, l.h

chapter I

song: in the end, linkin park

Winter

My life is a total mess. I lost my boyfriend of two years, I lost my mom to cancer and I don't even want to talk about my dad. He's rotting somewhere, I hope in hell. Yesterday my 19th birthday was celebrated by me and my lovely blades. A slash on my wrists for every year air was wasted on me. I still smell the blood and the metal and it comforts me somehow.

My flat is extremely huge because my mum bought it for me before she died saying I deserved a good home. I don't  have friends nor relatives that could help me after all this. I wanted to jump yesterday but an old lady I've never met saw my cuts, wanted to ask questions and I ran away. But today is the day and while other people are sad, I'm happy.

I don't know where to jump from yet but I hope I'll find a place. I Jumping in front of a train isn't right, in my opinion. You're just responsible for the sanity of the train operator. He doesn't deserve it. Pills are not trustworthy. Hanging? I'm not doing what some people have done in the past trying to eliminate other people. Jumping is just the nicest option.

I take my bag and my keys, put on my shoes and leave my flat. I left my cat in there because I know once I'm dead, some kid of my family will gladly take it. I love her and I put food and water there. She's the only one I'm going to miss.

Ten minutes later I see the perfect opportunity. A very tall house right in front of me. My face lights up and I feel like laughing. I walk inside the house and see very few people. One looks up and smiles. I smile back even though I don't know him nor why he smiles.

"Are you one of the seventeeners?", he asks me leaving me confused.

"Who are the seventeeners?"

"Oh.. Okay I'm sorry.", he looks away quickly, avoiding my face.

"Have you heard of the 17th floor?", he asks again.

"No, what's that?"

"That's the place lonely souls jump into happiness"

"You mean in suicide?", I may have found the perfect place right now.

"We have about 100 to 200 cases of suicide every year. This building is one of the highest in the city and people seem to have obsessed with the 17th floor. Out of 100%, 92% jump from the 17th floor.", he tells me and I can see sadness in his eyes.

"The youngest one to jump was only 13 years old. The girl was named Cara and was very sweet. One day before she jumped she told me her story. Everything. I guess I should have listened to her more clearly and actually given a fuck about her problems. Her parents were fighting every day. She said that her father was close to hitting her mother. She started crying when she told me and I could see her cuts and it was just very sad. When she noticed me looking she told me her parents didn't even know. She told me that she had been close to tell her mother but said that she didn't even care. Next day she came here and said she wanted to greet Billie. Billie lives in floor 16. We're just a few homeless here and the building is abandoned since 6 years. She went up and jumped from floor 17.", he ended his story and I got very sad thinking about him. He must be really sad seeing all the people die. But on the other hand he doesn't have a choice.

"You're going to jump, aren't you?", he said and I nodded.

"Alright kiddo, I may be old and I'm not going to prevent you from jumping but just tell me anything if you want to.", I sit down, next to him and try to keep my voice steady.

"My mum died from cancer, my dad is an asshole, I have no brothers or sisters, my boyfriend cheated after 2 years and I really thought we were happy but I guess he wasn't. I have no friends and that's it today."

"Alright, let me tell you one thing. Just one okay. After that you can jump but the thing is, when you're close to jumping think of me. Think of someone who really likes you."

"Thank you so much.", I said and hugged him.

"What are you thanking me for? Not keeping you from suicide?"

"No, I thank you for protecting me from my nightmares and demons. They will stop as soon as my heart stops and I will be forever thankful.", I said and hugged him again.

I took the elevator until floor 16 and greeted Billie. Then I took the stairs until floor 17. It seemed like everything was planned. One window was open and it wasn't to high. Actually it had the perfect size to fit through it. But it wasn't what I expected. There right in front of the window was a boy. He had blonde hair and wore a suit.

"Hey!"

"What?"

"Please don't jump"

"Why not? Time is a slut and so is life."

"Why time?"

"Because your wasting your Time trying to help me"

"Please stop"

"Why should I?"

"Because I wanted to jump first."

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Billie as in Billie joe? Jap.

I hope it's not tooooo short :)

My friend recommended this song and I'm literally obsessed with it!

I'm imagining her as kaya scodelario but if you find someone who fits even better, tell me. I'm just obsessed with her because she's just amazing omg

-love ya

Ps;: isn't Luke hot ?!