17th Floor, l.h

chapter IV

song: daylight, 5 seconds of summer

Luke and I listened to the CD until it was over. I sobered up and now we talked about his family. He tells me about his mum and his two brothers and they sound really nice.

"What about your family?", he asks and I cringe at his question.

"I-I don't think that's important", I say and shift uncomfortable in my seat.

"You don't have to tell me, love", he says and smiles. He pulls me into a hug and I can hear his heartbeat.

"It's just not my favourite topic to talk about. I try hard to block it out and when it comes back I start to cry uncontrollable and I don't like myself in this condition", I feel tears coming up and I know this can't happen right now. Luke saw me crying earlier, I don't want that to happen again.

"I don't mind seeing you cry. Crying is okay. I cry too", he says and hugs me tighter.

"My mum died two years ago when I was 17 years old", his reaction is pure shock and he kisses my forehead.

"I'm sorry I asked. Your mum would be very proud to have such a beautiful and intelligent daughter", he says and I like him even more for saying intelligent. There are many boys in this earth who characterise girls by their looks and I don't like that at all.

"I don't know whether to argue that or say thank you", I say and smile at him.

"Just take it"

"Okay I have an important question. Do you like green day?", it seems like something important to him.

"Of course. I like a lot of music. Just not screamo or something like that"

"I finally found you. Where have you been?", he says and laughs.

"Next to you. You could have sung the bell, you know"

"Are you going to try again?", he asks and I know what he's talking about.

"I guess so. Are you?"

"I guess so too. Life is just so hard"

"But not tomorrow", I say and I mean it.

"I like you. You should stay alive", he says and tears are threating to come out of my eyes.

"You're the only friend I have Luke", I whisper and lean into his chest.

"I will stay with you as long as you need me to be there but please don't jump", he says.

"Can we go to sleep?", I try to distract him from his question.

"Answer me", his serious tone is telling me that he only takes a real answer.

"I won't try to jump for a week. Is that good enough for you?", I scream at him and tears scream doen my face. He looks at me in shock and I realise I am pushing him away. I do the same I do with every other person.

"Stop screaming at me. I tried to jump too. Not only you. I try my best to convince you but you don't even listen to me"

I totally forgot that and as I begin to realise that he's right, I run towards him and hug him.

"I'm so sorry Luke, I'm so so sorry", I mumble into his neck. He hugs me back and I feel a few tears on my back. I don't know why but I can't stand Luke crying.

"Will you stay here with me Luke?", I ask and he nods.

"Of course. I mean, we are suicide buddies now, aren't we?", he tries to joke but I know how serious he means it.

"I'll just sleep on the couch", he says.

"Luke, I know we only met today and how we met is another thing but would you stay with me?", I ask him and it seems like his face lights up at my question.

"Of course"

He comes with me and I go change in the bathroom. When I come back Luke only wears some sweatpants and oh god I'm fainting.

"This is like the weirdest question ever but does it bother you if I only sleep in my boxers?", he tries to hide it but I can see his cheeks getting red.

"No. I don't think it's a problem", I say.

I climb into my bed and so does he. After 10 minutes trying to sleep I hear him say:"Good night beautiful"

After another 10 minutes I feel myself drifting into a nice sleep.

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In this story, Luke is his awkward cute penguin self not too cocky(maybe at some point but not yet lol I love cocky Luke)

I hope you know how perfect you are and if you don't: you're perfect ❤

ps: I imagine him wearing that outfit