CLAIMING THE MAFIA

ERIC SAID

"Do you think im some idiot?" Alex yelled squeezing the steering wheel.

At this point I'm definitely lost because I have no idea why his mad all over again.

"What are you talking about?" I asked looking at him side ways. From the looks of it that made him even more angry.

"Im not dumb.  First you up and start thinking about him, then you take your fucking time to find him. And look what yo-" "Hold on you think I went looking for him?" I yelled cutting him off.

"I don't think I know, Eric said you asked him to look for them. Did you think I was that fucking stupid? If you love him so much why the fuck are you with me? Hmm? Seems to me your using me, for something." He said speeding up.

"Wait Eric said I asked him to look for them. Eric lied, and me using you? What the fuc-" I was cut off by a sharp pain in my nose.

Did he just hit me?

My mind was going a million miles a second. I reached up and touched my nose only to reveal there was blood. And lots of it. I looked over at him shocked, hurt,surprised, furious, bewildered. Before I could do anything we pulled up to his house. He got out and left me in the car, slamming the door in the process. I can't help but feel so stupid because I knew a time like this would come and my mother always told me " If a man hits you and you love him, beat his ass and he'll never hurt you again". 

I hopped out of the car holding my face and getting sympathetic looks from the guys. I went to the closest bathroom to get this blood off of me and assess the damages.  Soon after I had finished cleaning my face I heard Eric in the kitchen laughing. Oh this is exactly who I need to see. I flushed the tissue down the toilet and walked into the kitchen.

"I went looking for him Eric? Is that what you told him? That I fucking went looking for him?" I yelled surprising everyone in the kitchen including Alex who seemed calm.

"What are you talking about?" Eric asked.

"Oh so now you play stupid, fuck you. You know damn well I don't give a fuck about Zayn and what the fuck he's doing. I told you what I told you because I felt like I could trust you. But you go and do some shit like this because I turned you down?" I yelled.

"Why would I lie to Alex? That's exactly what you asked me to do." He said lying through his teeth.

"No I asked you to leave me the fuck alone, because you wanted to be more then "friends"." I said putting quotes in the air.

"Lets be open and honest now cause you feel the need to lie. You wanted to fuck me, the day Alex left for England. I turned you down because I would never do anything like that to anybody especially him. You insisting on having sex with me tried to say he had a girl in every country and I wasn't any different. Right?" I yelled. He couldn't say anything he just sat there looking at me angrily.

"Right, nothing to fucking say. Instead of trying to ruin everything I have because I turned you down worry about your fucking self!" I yelled even more.

"And you!" I said pointing to Alex.

"You can stay the fuck away from me. I'm done being everybody's second choice. You can have this ring because I don't want it." I said throwing the ring across the room.

'No man should hit a woman ever. And I want so bad to fuck you up but I cant. I don't think your worth fighting for anymore. I would never use you and you know that's part of the reason I won't stay with you. I fucking loved you and you hit me, that was something I asked you to never do. Fuck respecting me for one second huh?" I told him while crying.

"Now I would love for somebody to take me home so I can get out of here." I said wiping my eyes and trying to stop my soon to approach panic attack.

My mind is in so many different places, Im angry, hurt, betrayed, all of these things caused by "the love of my life". Fuck everybody at this point, its all about me.

Leaving the kitchen no body said a word, I walked back in the bathroom and grabbed my purse, walking through the hallway and to the front doors. I walked out and waited for somebody to come out but no one did, I heard nothing but I knew they were talking. Somethings should be left alone is what I was told all my life and this is one of those things.

"Umm Finn can you take me to the hospital? I mean the real one by my place." I asked one of the men guarding the door.
We hopped in the one of Black Range Rover's and headed that way.

"Ashanti?" Finn asked.

"Yea?" I answered holding my head up.

"Are you okay? I mean is everything okay? You don't have to answer if you don't want to." He said concerned.

"Im not okay and I know I never will be. He hurt me but what hurts the most is I still have love for him. He didn't believe me but I believe in him. I feel like everytime I fall in love, something picks me back up and throws me far away." I said through tears.

He didn't say anything and that just assured me he was listening.

"Do you need me to come in with you?" He asked as we pulled up to the emergency room.

"No im fine, but thanks." I said unbuckling the seatbelt.

"Do you want me to wait for you?" He asked.

"No I'll walk home, but Thank you again." I said getting out of the car and waving as I went into the building.

I walked up to the front desk and the women there looked up and knew what was wrong.

"Oh baby hold your head back. She said standing up and walking around the counter to me. She touched my face and I flinched back in pain. I guess I hadn't noticed it was painful because I was so angry.

"Okay we need to get you a room now, it might be broke." She said holding my back and guiding me somewhere.

And that's all I remember before blacking out.