Fears!

chapter 7

Misha's POV
As I start to look around I can only find a shattered mirror no one to fix it but me,the underlying path makes it look easy no where to run I can only hide my face beneath a sand. I hear my scars talking no one knows the truth but me how can I let it out I could tear up the entire family but I'm not to blame I didn't ask for this it came to me unwanted things should stay unwanted oh believe me it was no mistake I look around tears falling down my cheeks I can only scream but no can hear my voice I've gone invisible the true me can't be seen it's only a matter of time when they start to discover who I really am I watch the blade in room I could fix myself by removing myself from the equation the face of the earth was not made for a broken mirror, I can say so myself I tried to pull through, this time I'm to blame, the sorority was a way in but I chose to go astray I chose to run from the path I was given cause I tested freedom for a while I could be my real self in my wildest fantasy but never in reality. As I take the blade the words reminisce in my head I can't keep doing this to myself it's not about fear anymore this is my reality my wildest fears came alive because I let my demons out,I am a fallen angel whose wings got clipped ,I caught up with the wrong crowd but I was home it felt true I can't lie and say I wanted to stop I felt ease when my pain was rejoiced. Only a few people could relate to how I was feeling. I take my blade and look at my hand so brown and fair I rub it slowly waiting to penetrate the blade into my skin ,as I open my blade I find it charming like a boy I can say I hold it firm so that it doesn't slip away like a snake. I take the first cut in my hand I draw the first line with my blade I see blood dripping on the carpet I don't have to clean that in the morning. I laugh silently as I move to my second line making sure its deeper than the last somehow I don't feel pain as i want to remove the vein my breath slowly depleting from me I feel weaker but somehow the pain I felt is slowly being removed I feel my head spinning slowly like a snail making it even more nice as blood flows out of my hand so does my breath...

Mom calls everyone downstairs to come eat dinner ..as everyone walks in uncle Marselo scans his eyes for Misha who is not even at the table.

Has anyone seen Misha.Uncle Marselo asks.

Uhm yeah the last time I saw her she was heading up to her room so I think she's still there but I think we should give her some space.

No ways Cathy it's dinner time and we should together as a family it's her turn to say grace anyways.

You too hush I'll go look for her she's probably on her loud music.

Alright Agatha/mom. Uncle Marselo and I say it at the same time

Agatha's POV
As I go upstairs to look for my niece i could not help to wonder what other madness could she be up to,oh the pain and shame she brought our family. I move towards Misha's room and the door is shut oh she knows better than that to shut the door closed. As I move closer to the door my anger is infuriating she gone get it. I knock on the door Misha honey its Aunt Agatha open the door I repeat the words a couple of times but no answer I try to turn the door knob but its locked it's a good thing I have a master's key In my room. I rush to my room I get in to take the key on my shelf I rush to Misha's room I open the door I'm almost out of breath as I turn the door knob  I look around the bed and she's not there as I walk closer to her bed I see Misha's body laying there lifelessly I scream for Marselo and he gets here quickly he finds me sitting on the floor with Misha's head on my knees I tell him to call 911 and he does so panicking I whisper in Misha's ear please dont leave Misha I beg you please don't go . I hear Marselo explaining to the operator

×hello 911 my niece-niece-niece is laying unconscious on the floor please help

×hello hold on sir may we get the address

×24 Canada street
×the ambulance should be there in 5 minutes

As he hanged up I could not bear to lose another member of my family...the ambulance gets here and Cathy run to the door to show them where Misha is..they come in the room and ask me to move so they can assist her the Lady says she lost a lot of blood but she's still breathing but it's very quick to tell as they strap her on the stretcher I watch her leave and i say to them I'll follow you behind. I ask Marselo to come with me to the hospital and Cathy to get car keys my mind is only focused on Misha being better I start the car and follow the ambulance,the hospital is only 6 streets away from our house so we get there in no time they start rushing her to the building and they put her on the bed the doctors run with the bed and take her to an ICU

A few minutes later the doctor comes and I stand up and he says please sign these papers she lost a lot of blood and we need to get blood from the blood bank I sign tears rolling down my cheek praying silently in my heart so that she can make it. As soon as I was done signing the nurse takes the paper as the doctor goes back to the operation room...

Let us pray for our sister Misha ,Cathy says and we hold hands to form a chain prayer each person prays in their comfortable language as the prayers go on and eventually stop everyone sits uncomfortably on the hospital chairs looking very worried about Misha. The doctor comes back and we all stand up asking at the same time is she okay ?

The doctor answers by saying it's too soon to tell the operation was a success we were able to restore the blood she lost and the nutrients however she's still not completely out of danger she's in a coma

We all gasped co-co-coma! She's in a coma

Yes ma'am if you will excuse me as the doctor exists

My knees feel weak my head is spinning and I can't think straight tears fall down my cheeks I try to contain myself but I can't Marselo comes and hugs me saying it will be alright but I know he's just saying that to make me feel better but his words are not comforting me at all. My niece is in a hospital bed fighting for her life regrets about giving her a hard time starts caressing my mind I can only blame myself oh my what have I done. I break free of Marselo's hug I sit down and put my elbows on my thighs and my head is facing down I'm losing hope...

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