Fears!

chapter 11

Truth is I knew what i was doing I can't blame anyone I should have stopped but I wanted to break a human at all possible levels but instead I'm the broken one. Misha said while standing up and getting into bed. "I don't feel normal I'm losing everything and everyone I loved I'm in a toxic relationship with my self maybe I'm just a lost course I don't deserve to live I wanna die so badly that they won't let me every night I sit by myself wishing the angel of death could just take me but my wish doesn't even come true i need a genie to grant me this wish all my friends i used to talk to about everything became a distant memory nothing was the same with me I'm not evil I'm misunderstood i just wanted to be loved and i never got that i lost my mom she was still alive but no longer there with me everything became just pain a living depressed frustrated girl that wished death so many times that it became a never ending song trust me when I say I hated myself I wanted to leave they thought I was possessed I just made a deal with the devil but the devil didn't want me too so I waited for another person to come kill me it never did happen".

Misha went to sleep with all of her thoughts running through her mind she couldn't sleep cause her thoughts were louder than her peace.

The next morning she woke up ready to tell the truth as her way to begin her day.
She took a bath dressed in black and called a family meeting she was feeling nauseous cause she needed to do this.

"Good day everyone, I called this meeting today to be truthful and honest about everything that happened and why I tried to kill myself countless times including the nightmares". 

"I tried to kill someone using chemicals from our school lab and the chemicals did some damage to his face"...  Agatha interrupts her
"Dearest child" aunt please let me finish let me say what I must I'm pleading with you I just need to get out of my system sometimes we say or we do things in a self defense mode without realizing we are there "I wanted to hurt him and I did it I saw myself laughing at him and it wasn't easy on me but I just had to torture him I didn't feel guilty about doing it I just wanted him to feel pain I used acid I poured him with acid and I watched as his face deteriorated from outside in one side of his face and hand were burning I'm not a bad person I swear but his screams for pain bought me joy and I wanted it to last longer I became someone else and I wanted it to last longer but it couldn't Andrew found out the truth about everything and I told him not to tell anyone I bribed him with sex he accepted I gave away myself so cheaply for a secret I wanted kept hidden from the world that it started eating me alive I couldn't bear the thought of losing anyone else".

"Cathy say something please anything"... "okay... you are selfish you only think about yourself but I have a confession to make as well you didn't kill Kisha I did it waas an acc.. accident she stutters I swear it was an accident we were at there and we argued I accidentally pushed her she Fell on the rock I didn't know what to do or say I watched her as she bled out and you came I convinced everyone that you did it and I knew about your mental state and delusions I just played into them and you fell for it"

What! Misha and Agatha say it in unison

"Its the truth don't play dumb mom you knew exactly what I was up to even Andrew did it was all fun and games till you tried to end your life then it became reality you really aren't stable so I gave it to you I played everything correctly and I made sure I gave you everything you wanted that is how I wanted you to believe but mom had other plans you see we all knew you didn't do it but you believed everything told to you so we played it to our advantage its really ironic and you didn't pour that acid Andrew did cause I told him to call me evil but that's what your fears do to you"

"No I don't believe it,it can't be I refuse to believe you could never be so despicable it's not happening I must be dreaming" she says in a state on denial "oh sweetheart you aren't dreaming I can promise you that I did everything and I could have killed you too but I just found out that your dad is also my dad so my uncle is my dad life is ironic turns out I killed my own sister".
"What! "Mom is not your aunt she was your mother's best friend" "like mother like daughter" ...

The end

Author's note

Hey my lovelies I've decided to end this book for now. It is a short complicated story so I'll be writing another book but it will be a Romance themed book thank you guys so much for reading my boom truly means a lot to me be safe y'all post questions in the comments I'll get back to y'all as soon as possible 🥺🥺🥺🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹see y'all in my next book❤❤❤❤❤my lovelies it has been a journey #Fears! Has come to an end ❤❤❤❤for now take care lovelies ❤❤❤❤❤❤😻...