𝘼𝙛𝙛𝙖𝙞𝙧-𝑧.𝑑.𝑗

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They loved being together but the guilt always made its way back. At the moment that didn't matter to them, all they cared about was how happy they were together, even if they shouldn't be.

Zabdiel (12/27/19)
Vanesa and I stayed at the beach for almost the entire day. We left while the sun was setting. On our way back to the car I noticed that she was shivering a little so after I opened her door I went to open the trunk where I had a hoodie.

"Here, se nota que tienes frio."- I said as I smiled at her. She took it while returning the smile and said thank you with her sweet voice. She put on the hoodie while I got in the car so when I looked at her again I got to see her in my hoodie which had to be the most adorable thing I've ever seen.

"Te queda bien, mejor que a mi."

"Gracias."- she said as she looked down so I asume I wouldn't see her blushing but I still saw the hint of red on her cheeks.

We had a nice quite drive, like almost every other time. I think we both enjoyed just driving with the radio in the background. I'd just simply drive with my free hand in hers and neither of us ever tried to make conversation.

Vanesa and I've known each other for about two weeks. Ever since I saw her come in with Joel I thought she was breathtaking. I knew she wasn't Joel's girlfriend because he's never mention anyone but I also didn't know she was Alejandro's fiancé. She never told me, but I can't be that mad at her. I know it's wrong, very wrong, but there's something about her that just takes my breath away every time I see her.

When Joel left to find everyone else I took it as my chance to go up to her. She looked nervous but so beautiful at the same time. I asked her for a water that was on the table, it actually wasn't mine but I didn't know what to say to her. I had completely forgotten any pick up line I had so I just asked her for the water. When she looked at me with her beautiful green eyes I forgot about everything once again.

That had to be one of the best nights of my life.

Then we went out for breakfast the next day, that same day we kissed. Her lips were so soft, gentle, and delicate. We hung out a lot, I even invited her over for Christmas.

Christmas was a train wreck. When I saw her and Alejandro holding hands I was shocked and hurt. I didn't think she'd be the type of person to do such a thing, but yet again I thought the same thing about myself. When she kissed me that night I was taken by surprise but feeling her gentle soft lips on mine made me forget about everything. Then I left, I just couldn't bare knowing she was with someone and was about to get married.

She was worried I'd tell Alejandro but I felt it wouldn't be right. When I went back to the party he saw me and we talked, he even asked me to go to the wedding. That's when Vanesa came back. Alejandro cluelessly told us we should get to know each other more but I knew that it would've been hard to pretend I didn't know her. To pretend we had never talked about the things we liked and didn't like, to pretend we didn't know each other's worst fear or biggest dream. It would've just been to hard.

As the night went on I couldn't help but look at her and smile. She just look perfect, as always. I tried to cover it up but I couldn't help it. However when I'd look to her right I always saw him, I saw the luckiest guy in the world.

When she got up to go somewhere I couldn't help but follow her. I just wanted one more kiss. I knew what I was getting myself into at this point but it didn't matter if I could at least get one more kiss. 

The moment I kissed her everything just felt right. It was just her and I and nothing else mattered.

Then the day after the boys and I hung out and Joel told me how Alejandro was leaving for California today. So I asked her out, at this point I didn't even care I just wanted to see her and be with her.

That was probably one of the best decisions I've ever made.

As I was lost in my thoughts I felt as her eyes were on me. I turned to look at her and she was smiling, once she realized I was looking at her too she turned to look at the road which just caused me to chuckle. She really was perfect.

We got to her place not long after and I walked her all the way to her apartment never letting go of her hand.

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Vanesa (12/27/19
Zabdiel and I got to my place a few minutes ago, I asked him if he wanted to stay a little bit but he said he was fine. I don't think he's comfortable here now that he knows who else lives here.

Before I got in the shower my phone started ringing. It was alejandro, he wanted to FaceTime me. That's when I remembered the box. I picked up as i went to go get it.

"Hola Vanesa"

"Hola Alejandro, ya llegaste?"

"Si, llegue hace como hace dos horas pero me quede dormido."

"Oh. Oye hace rato Joel vino y trajo esta caja."- I said as I showed him the box

"Oh si, de echo por eso te llame. Es un regalo que te iba dar en navidad pero no llego a tiempo."- then why did Joel have it?

"Y porque lo tenia Joel?"

"Le pregunté que si podía llegar a su casa para que no lo vieras, pero ábrela. Espero que te guste."

I started to open it carefully so I would have such a mess to pick up. Once I had taken the wrapping paper of there was a box with a lid. I opened the lid to reveal a dress. It was white and glisten where the light touched it. I took it out and saw that it was long enough to go a bit past my ankles. It was a very pretty dress.

"What is this for?"

"Well I know you've been having a hard time picking a dress so maybe you could wear this one at the reception and if you don't like it for the ceremony you can get another one."

I was speechless. The dress was beautiful but I just didn't picture myself in it for my wedding. I couldn't picture my wedding at all anymore and if I did Alejandro usually wasn't the groom. Has Zabdiel caused me to have cold feet?

I didn't want to hurt Alejandro's feelings so I told him that I loved it and would think about it if I never found a dress. He was okay with it and happy I liked it.

We talked for a little longer before he said he had to go because his boss was calling him.

I was now ready to go to sleep but I couldn't stop thinking about Zabdiel's and I's conversation or about the dress. Part of me knew that what Zabdiel and I were doing was wrong but part of me loved it.

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and that's seven, did you like having zabdiel's pov? also was having two povs confusing or okay? well i hope you guys liked this chapter, honestly tho it was just kinda to test out zabdiel's pov 🤷‍♀️🥺